wow...
so, yesterday was one of those days when you realize that your life is never going to be the same. No words could possibly describe exactly what it feels like. You can read a million cheezy magazines and see tons of documentaries on TV and read every book every published on the subject but untill you're standing in the hospital and you see the first glimpse of your child you don't know.
Everything is different. Before it happens you actually have the audacity to think that you regret having gotten into this situation in the first place. But when it comes it just feels right. I know that it's going to be a long time before i can sleep through the night, or listen to loud music in the house, or watch movies with blasting surround sound, or generally do anything for myself, but suddenly for some odd reason it doesn't really seem like such a big deal.
It's just so bizarre that there is this little tiny fragile life that is completely dependent upon me and Nicole for survival. Just knowing that makes me want to do everything I can to make things easier and more comfortable for him.
I dunno, i suppose I Can sum up things in this:
having a baby is weird and kind of scary yet amazingly fulfilling and exciting at the same time. And after all is said and done it's totally worth it.
Everything is different. Before it happens you actually have the audacity to think that you regret having gotten into this situation in the first place. But when it comes it just feels right. I know that it's going to be a long time before i can sleep through the night, or listen to loud music in the house, or watch movies with blasting surround sound, or generally do anything for myself, but suddenly for some odd reason it doesn't really seem like such a big deal.
It's just so bizarre that there is this little tiny fragile life that is completely dependent upon me and Nicole for survival. Just knowing that makes me want to do everything I can to make things easier and more comfortable for him.
I dunno, i suppose I Can sum up things in this:
having a baby is weird and kind of scary yet amazingly fulfilling and exciting at the same time. And after all is said and done it's totally worth it.