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i dont want to grow up. i'm continually reminded about colleges, and that next year i'll have to start applying, which worries me an incredible amount. because if i dont get into university of illinois (with a 3.85 and somewhere around a 29 act) then i'm screwed, because my parents wont pay out of state tuition unless i get some sort of scholarship to reduce the tuition. i know i can easily get into university of iowa, and purdue, so maybe i should just give up on university of illinois and just start looking for scholarships? i dont know, i seriously do NOT want to grow up, i want to go to college, but i dont ever want to be in the world on my own and start a family, it just freaks me the hell out.