Mar 19, 2005 21:16
dear stephanie-
i'm so sorry for making you feel upset by me being upset. you deserve to be always happy. you are so beautiful to me. you have a gorgeous smile to match that gorgeous soul inside. im so glad i met you and so glad to be able to call you a true friend.
i know i messed up with this whole thing. i dont know why i didnt ask you out or told you how i truly felt about you. i never met someone before that totally took my breath away. whenever im around you i feel so happy. you are truly an awesome person.
my true feelings about you is that i want to be with you so bad. i know id treat you right, the way you ought to be. id do the little things that show you how much i care about you. i just love being around you, if i cant be i love hearing you voice on the phone.
i have never felt so passionate about someone as i feel for you. these last few weeks have prolly been the hardest for me in my whole life. the fact that the person who brings me so much happiness is someone i can't have. these last weeks, my stomach has been fulled with knots that feel like a empty gut feeling.
i just want to let you know that i will never be mad/upset with you ever. i have the most positive feelings about you that i have ever had. knowing that you are taken and that i screwed up what we had is a regret i will always have. i know you prolly dont want to here any of this but its so hard to keep it inside of me. thinking of you not with me bring tears to my eyes cuz i want that so badly.
in closing;
i care about you alot. i would do anything to make you smile when your having a bad day. its so weird feeling like this becuz ive never felt so alone in my life. you are amazing!
love you-
bryan