well hi!
hmmm this is a new journal, n i aint done this in a while so forgive me if im rusty. well hows about an intro, for those of u who dont know me. Im donna, aka Bubba, im 17 n i live in lisnahuncheon. no most people dont know where that is either. well i like goin out, i hate school and the pretentiousness that exudes from every crack in the place. but i go, every day. even tho my life is so shit that u wud wonder why i get up from bed in the morning.
My life is bad for a few reaons:
1. my mother is an alcho. which hurts.... so much more than u cud imagine.
2. my love life is never right. either too many guys or 2 little. dont say 2 manys a gud thing, cos its not, someone usually gets hurt, n i don wana hurt ppl but iv bn hurt so many tmes. like rite now, for instance, i have a boyfriend as of 2 days ago, eunan. hes soooooo sweet n sooooooo nice n i duno wat id do without him, but yet i cant help but really lyk 2 other guys. its wrong i know, but ull realise tat most of the time i do the wrong thing. theres neil, whos always bnaround, n i cant get rid of, tho even in that, i dont really want to. if he smiles i crack. Theres dermy, which an even bigger enigma. he has fucked my head up so much i don know whether im coming or goin. n wats worse is i think he knows it and enjoys doing this 2 me.And even worse than that,because of this i want him even more.
3. i sdometimes feel that if i wer gone, noone would miss me. if my name wernt on the register at scul or anything, wud they think about me???
Thinking bout these things depresses me, and makes me wana kill myself.Dont think this is a sob a story, cos it aint. there are a few thing that are good in my life:
1.Shauna and Corinna- my best friends in the entire world. They brighten my day to no end, theyr shingin lights in a dark sky. God i sound so poetic ill b quoting Robert Frost in a minute.... zzzzz.
2.The elk - i no sayin a club is stupid, but its true. on a saturday nite, i can forget bout all the shit that goes on, i can dance i can do whatever i want.
Well thats bout it, i need2go, cos im goin bowling with eunan in a wee wile. but ill be back.
My life is bad for a few reaons:
1. my mother is an alcho. which hurts.... so much more than u cud imagine.
2. my love life is never right. either too many guys or 2 little. dont say 2 manys a gud thing, cos its not, someone usually gets hurt, n i don wana hurt ppl but iv bn hurt so many tmes. like rite now, for instance, i have a boyfriend as of 2 days ago, eunan. hes soooooo sweet n sooooooo nice n i duno wat id do without him, but yet i cant help but really lyk 2 other guys. its wrong i know, but ull realise tat most of the time i do the wrong thing. theres neil, whos always bnaround, n i cant get rid of, tho even in that, i dont really want to. if he smiles i crack. Theres dermy, which an even bigger enigma. he has fucked my head up so much i don know whether im coming or goin. n wats worse is i think he knows it and enjoys doing this 2 me.And even worse than that,because of this i want him even more.
3. i sdometimes feel that if i wer gone, noone would miss me. if my name wernt on the register at scul or anything, wud they think about me???
Thinking bout these things depresses me, and makes me wana kill myself.Dont think this is a sob a story, cos it aint. there are a few thing that are good in my life:
1.Shauna and Corinna- my best friends in the entire world. They brighten my day to no end, theyr shingin lights in a dark sky. God i sound so poetic ill b quoting Robert Frost in a minute.... zzzzz.
2.The elk - i no sayin a club is stupid, but its true. on a saturday nite, i can forget bout all the shit that goes on, i can dance i can do whatever i want.
Well thats bout it, i need2go, cos im goin bowling with eunan in a wee wile. but ill be back.