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all i do lately is think think think. about stupid shit. about cori. i dont know why i do this to myself. its always this time of year. maybe winter depresses me. i wish everyone could have met him..even though hes an ass still he made things good. one of the things i miss about robin is that she could snap me out of thinking this retarded shit. i love christina and jim but they dont get it sometimes. jim is the best friend i could ask for but i dont think he gets why i obsess about shit..why i get so worried..fuck actually i dont think i know. so i guess we are in the same boat. but oh well. i have the people i need and i couldt be happier. though this sounds like a bitching post its really not. i have jim and christina and em and hoges and pat and people at work who i love..and of course ash..so im pretty much that happiest ive been. but as for going on vacation i cant wait to get out of here..to go on vacation..fuck to even go to work. but im pretty sure even though ill have a great time away..i know im just going to think think think. this is pretty much a post to me. i guess if you dont know me well you wont understand. im proud of myself lately..im not giving up on anything. im sticking to what i want to do..and i havent done that in years. im growing up i guess. who knows. i need a nap. i have work in 9 hours and 45 minutes. and i just got home from work a half hour ago. seeing jim and everyone on tuesday.all in all i love life. i really do.