im sorry i couldnt come liz. i tried everything. be happy- you're 16 now! whoo! love you bff
my countdown: 18 til the big 16!!
i havent had a good update in a while. liz left, i didnt get to go to her birthday camping trip, and i babysit nonstop. im really mad i didnt go to liz's. i guess its kinda good tho cuz if i did i would have been in pain the entire time anyways. like 4 nights ago i woke up and i couldnt breathe and it felt like my ribs were cracking. i keep getting pains in my chest and in my left arm. it freaks me out a lot but ryan's more concerned than i am. anywhoo, it got to the point where i had to make an emergency doctors appointment. they put me on an inhalor because my lungs are tight i guess and my airways getting smaller. whatever, it hurts really bad when it hits but goes away after like a minute. school's coming up and i dont like it. band starts monday but i think im going to be missing most of it. ryan's finally done with work which is a huge plus. :-) the last few days we havent seen a lot of each other but whatever, hopefully for my last 2 weeks of summer we will. last saturday he suprised me with warped tour tickets which was very exciting. after that, we went out to eat, then to his dads, my dads so i could change and see liz, then to his moms so he could change, but we got a little caught up there for a while hehe.. after that we jumped on the orange line to downtown to see the fireworks but we saw the last of the from like a mile away. on the way home we got on the green line instead and ended up at indiana street which isnt a good thing. we did meet this awesome irish guy that did the same thing we did tho. best day ever. the next day definetley wasnt. liz left which was bad thing #1. bad thing #2 was mrs. donahue coming home early. #3 getting caught on the phone at 11:30 and not being able to go out the next night for it. as a matter of fact, from sunday on this week has sucked. not being able to go to liz's, arguements with ryan, getting ditched by my friends, throwing a surprise party for my cousin (it was fun for her so i guess it wasnt that bad, a big let down tho), friends drinnking at the cemetary almost every night, not being able to go out, chest pains, taylor with a cold, and dad on my nerves. speaking of which, yesterday and today really set me off with my dad. yesterday he got mad cuz i callled him like 7 times. almost every time was with a good rreason. i mean he was gone for 14 hours straight. at like 5:30 he said he'd be home in an hour. at 7 i called him nd he was pissed because i wanted to go out. whatever, that didnt bother me that much because i didnt really want to go out but ryan did. they ended up drinking at the cemetary again anyways. so today i was babysitting once again and i called my dad and told him that taylor wasnt listening, but his response was "take care of it, you're the adult" i was like "yeah i've noticed".. and he got pissed for me saying that. oh well, i guess what kills you just makes you stronger.
sportyguy788: you have everything i have, you know everything i know, you love me, i love you, im not going to let anything bad happen to you, im not going anywhere anytime soon <- i love this kid to death. he is perfect.
brad's one year was the other day. i miss him a lot.- r.i.p. buddy 7.29.04