if i screamed in your face would you even hear my cries??
Life blows. Things have been pretty boring lately. Pretty much just hangin out with people, goin to school, blah, blah, blah. Hung out with Matt and Andy and Chris on Saturday nite. It was fun at first but i got so fucking sick by the end of the nite. Went home and spent the whole nite throwing up. Shitty. Hung out with Matt, Bobby and Sara on Sunday. It was ok. We went out to breakfast with Matt's dad. Then I took Matt to get his hair cut, but the lady did a horibble fucking job, so i had to fix it. : )
If i end up going to prom (i haven't decided yet) then I might not have to buy a dress! Tara still has hers from last year, and I might be able to borrow it! That would kick so much fucking ass cause i'm so broke!!
I've been applying for a shitload of jobs...unfortunately, i don't think people like to hire teenagers with criminal records. Damn me!! i fuck up every aspect of my life! Never fails.Oh well. Life goes on.
I miss a lot of people. Pretending not to, but sometimes i can't hide my thoughts from my self. It hurts to realize that someone meant everything to you and you meant nothing to that person...i wish i realized this at the time, it would've saved me a lot of heartache...guess i was just too naive. As usual.
I haven't taken my meds for 3 days so i feel like complete shit. Fucking stupid Bipolar!!! It'd be so nice to be fucking NORMAL for one fucking day!!!
I need something... not sure what. I just feel incomplete...
If i end up going to prom (i haven't decided yet) then I might not have to buy a dress! Tara still has hers from last year, and I might be able to borrow it! That would kick so much fucking ass cause i'm so broke!!
I've been applying for a shitload of jobs...unfortunately, i don't think people like to hire teenagers with criminal records. Damn me!! i fuck up every aspect of my life! Never fails.Oh well. Life goes on.
I miss a lot of people. Pretending not to, but sometimes i can't hide my thoughts from my self. It hurts to realize that someone meant everything to you and you meant nothing to that person...i wish i realized this at the time, it would've saved me a lot of heartache...guess i was just too naive. As usual.
I haven't taken my meds for 3 days so i feel like complete shit. Fucking stupid Bipolar!!! It'd be so nice to be fucking NORMAL for one fucking day!!!
I need something... not sure what. I just feel incomplete...