Wtf...

[_broken_lies_]

I am in a bad mood now. tonight wasn't so good. My friend Charlene who I love dearly tried to hook me up with this person(as in like getting us to meet not sex). So I got all dressed up in my emo pants my favourite shirts and stuff. Emma said I looked "hawt" So I was ready to go and excited. So went to go hangout and I don't really find them physically attractive but I have learned to get over that. But I did find them like mentally attractive. Then like it turns out they don't like "Emo" people. They also said they hate stereotyping but then again they just said they don't like emo people.That was the first blow. The second blow was when my age was insulted and what not. They said that they were too old and they were only 2 years older. I didn't mind but I still got rejected which makes me feel like complete shit. Then it sorta got worse I guess. Like we were driving home and they asked me all these personal questions. Then they said these exact words, "I noticed you were not sure and comfortable with youself. I myself on the other hand am very content with myself.". Then we were talking about highscool and I said I didn't hate it that much because I love socializing. So they say," Yea. School must be great for all those social butterflies." I was thinking "Wtf" are you insulting me because I'm social? But then I said something like, I sorta act differently at school then my real self.. although I don't know who I really am yet. And they said, "It's totally fine to be like that. I was too. You just need to find yourself and then you can truly be yourself.". That was the only comment that redeemed them. I guess I got mad at first because it was true. But in the end I'm still sorta sad because I got rejected but whatever. Also I have just realized I'm an emotional wreck. I cannot even sustain a relationship. I always bail. And I like being single alot and everything but I sorta want someone. But I just need to find someone who I truly like and stuff. I've concluded that I am a bailer or whatever. I just need to figure stuff out because lately I have been acting fine. But I sorta am. I'm gonna make another FO post because I wanna say something there that is personal.
But this weekend I'm going to Maine it's gonna be awesome. Well cya to all you un-friends people.