May 10, 2006 17:21
the only reason i am writing on this stupid livejournal thing is to appologize to alyssa. i didnt mean to hurt your feelings or anything im just really upset right now. i dont know anything anymore,and what i do know could ruin everyone. i didnt mean to hurt you. i love you doll but it seems that lately i dont know that much about you. i have to find out everything from everyone else. about guard, about alex, i mean everything. it upsets me and i didnt mean for it to seem like i was bashing you even though it did. im sorry im just really upset and im so confused. i dont know what to do and there is no one to talk to about it. not even you hun. im sorry and it has made me really edgy about everything. i dont know what it is, well i do, it is a lot of things that no one quite seems to understand. im sorry a million times about what i said so please forive me i just kinda blew up. youll have to excuse my behavior for a while until i can get everything over with and be done with it. i love you all, just please dont tryto ask me about what is wrong cause that seems to be making it worse. again i am sorry alyssa!