You and me are through
Ok... I have been thinkin about different things for a while. I've come to the conclusion that I've never been in love. And I'm not in love right now. Its some form of it, but I have never been in love. I always think I am or whatever but I always seem to get out of the bein in love stage. Yea it takes me a long time but its not me bein in love. I just love the guy a lot or like the guy a lot. I havent fallen and Im glad. I dont really want too, I want to fall in love with a guy who falls in love with me too and we can just be together. I know love hurts though. It hurts very much! So I am not in love with Jermaine, my mind wants me to be, but my heart tells me I'm not ready yet. I love him a lot though. I was talking to a friend this morning... early early in the morning and we were just talking, and I figured out I wasnt in love ever in my life. I realized this before him and I talked though. But now that I know its a load off my chest. You only fall in love once, and if i fell outta it then i was never in it to begin with. <3333