Holes to Heaven
It's been a really weird week. Tuesday was just, blah. I felt so gross all day, and I was in a really bad mood. I couldn't sleep the night before because my roommate left her light on (no, I'm retarded and I can't sleep with a little light on, even after taking Adivan). I didn't fall asleep until about 5am and I had to wake up at 7am, which didn't work. I slept through my first two classes, and the day went downhill from there. It sucked. I mean, it happens and it's not like the world's going to freaking end or anything. But I don't know, when you have 6 classes it kinda sets you back and puts you in a really pissy mood. Well, replace the "you"s with "me"s.
Yesterday was a little better, but I was still feeling weird.
Today was phenomenal! I actually went to all 4 of my classes starting bright and early at 8am, and I was in such a great mood (and still am!). During my last class I was feeling the urge to spend some serious cash, so I dragged (well, not really DRAGGED, more like mentioned the word "shopping") my friend Meg to Newbury Street and bought myself a really awesome pair of jeans. My first pair of Citizens!! (for all you chicks who know what I'm talking about).
My roommate is fighting with her boyfriend again. It makes me wonder if I'm ever going to fight like this with anyone. It's so weird. I would think that if you love someone you wouldn't fight? I don't know, maybe I'm just too naive to belive that people who are in love also fight.
Things with Chris are amazing. He's picking me up here in Boston tomorrow right after class, which is really nice, and we're going back to my house to drop off all my stuff, and then we're following my mom and my grandmother up to Ossipee for my Uncle's birthday dinner thing. It should be fun. Lots of driving, but driving around with Chris is always fun. I like just being with him alone and talking and cuddling and making him drive off the road, muahahaha ;). I haven't seen him since Monday so we miss each other a LOT. For a while I was kind of concerned because he wasn't really calling me much, I was calling him most of the time, but now he calls a lot. We're talking the same amount, he's just calling most of the time now. I get worried about the dumbest things sometimes. I'm always so afraid that he's going to randomly stop calling me and stop answering his phone and everything. Sometimes I have nightmares that he does really bad things to me, and it really freaks me out, because he's not like that at all. I know that he would never do anything to hurt me. I think maybe I'm just so scared to lose him because it feels so perfect right now. I need to learn to just relax and roll with it, and not always worry and think that it's going to get messed up! Just chiiiiiiiiiiiiill!!
I still can't believe I bought these jeans. I'm crazy.
Yesterday was a little better, but I was still feeling weird.
Today was phenomenal! I actually went to all 4 of my classes starting bright and early at 8am, and I was in such a great mood (and still am!). During my last class I was feeling the urge to spend some serious cash, so I dragged (well, not really DRAGGED, more like mentioned the word "shopping") my friend Meg to Newbury Street and bought myself a really awesome pair of jeans. My first pair of Citizens!! (for all you chicks who know what I'm talking about).
My roommate is fighting with her boyfriend again. It makes me wonder if I'm ever going to fight like this with anyone. It's so weird. I would think that if you love someone you wouldn't fight? I don't know, maybe I'm just too naive to belive that people who are in love also fight.
Things with Chris are amazing. He's picking me up here in Boston tomorrow right after class, which is really nice, and we're going back to my house to drop off all my stuff, and then we're following my mom and my grandmother up to Ossipee for my Uncle's birthday dinner thing. It should be fun. Lots of driving, but driving around with Chris is always fun. I like just being with him alone and talking and cuddling and making him drive off the road, muahahaha ;). I haven't seen him since Monday so we miss each other a LOT. For a while I was kind of concerned because he wasn't really calling me much, I was calling him most of the time, but now he calls a lot. We're talking the same amount, he's just calling most of the time now. I get worried about the dumbest things sometimes. I'm always so afraid that he's going to randomly stop calling me and stop answering his phone and everything. Sometimes I have nightmares that he does really bad things to me, and it really freaks me out, because he's not like that at all. I know that he would never do anything to hurt me. I think maybe I'm just so scared to lose him because it feels so perfect right now. I need to learn to just relax and roll with it, and not always worry and think that it's going to get messed up! Just chiiiiiiiiiiiiill!!
I still can't believe I bought these jeans. I'm crazy.