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WHAT UP? It's been so long. I'm so crappy at updating this thing. Whenever I think of updating it's always when I don't want to do something else, right now it's schoolwork. My online class is so retarded, I HATE IT. She gives us so much work. I guess it wouldn't be a lot to someone who is ONLY taking the online class and nothing else, but for me it's stupid. That's all about that.
SO Monday is Valentine's Day. Oh good. Chris is working a 16 hour shift and I'm getting a pap. FABULOUS!!! That's all about that.
Weight loss is a huge struggle for me right now. I just want to eat SO MUCH of the WORST THINGS, but of course it doesn't help that junk food is constantly in my face. I wish I had the self control to just be like "hm, instead of sitting in front of the TV eating chips and dip, I'll exercise on the elliptical for 30 minutes!" I do exercise, but it's after eating the chips, which doesn't do shit, so that's all about that.
Chris is good. He's working so much this week and it's been a little tough. I'm just so used to relying on him to be there on certain days at certain times and when he's not, it sucks. I should be able to be happy doing other things but honestly I'm not. That's something I really need to work on. I should never EVER rely on anybody else to make me happy. I've been struggling with this for over two years now. WHEN DID MY SELF ESTEEM TURN TO SHIT?? Anyway, I had kind of a spat yesterday and freaked out on Chris with all the crying and bullshit, and I felt really bad and he came to see me before he went to work, which really helped a lot. It all started because I didn't think he wanted to see me before he left for work. Sometimes I get upset about the most retarded things mannnnnnnn.
I miss my UMass girls. I miss just letting loose and going crazy with them. Hopefully I can arrange a visit soon. Katie said she wanted to come here sometime during spring break which would be lovely. We'll see. I miss Janina too. She's been in Europe for not even a year and it already feels like forever. Boo hoo, come back!
Welllllllll I really should start on this homework. PEACE!
SO Monday is Valentine's Day. Oh good. Chris is working a 16 hour shift and I'm getting a pap. FABULOUS!!! That's all about that.
Weight loss is a huge struggle for me right now. I just want to eat SO MUCH of the WORST THINGS, but of course it doesn't help that junk food is constantly in my face. I wish I had the self control to just be like "hm, instead of sitting in front of the TV eating chips and dip, I'll exercise on the elliptical for 30 minutes!" I do exercise, but it's after eating the chips, which doesn't do shit, so that's all about that.
Chris is good. He's working so much this week and it's been a little tough. I'm just so used to relying on him to be there on certain days at certain times and when he's not, it sucks. I should be able to be happy doing other things but honestly I'm not. That's something I really need to work on. I should never EVER rely on anybody else to make me happy. I've been struggling with this for over two years now. WHEN DID MY SELF ESTEEM TURN TO SHIT?? Anyway, I had kind of a spat yesterday and freaked out on Chris with all the crying and bullshit, and I felt really bad and he came to see me before he went to work, which really helped a lot. It all started because I didn't think he wanted to see me before he left for work. Sometimes I get upset about the most retarded things mannnnnnnn.
I miss my UMass girls. I miss just letting loose and going crazy with them. Hopefully I can arrange a visit soon. Katie said she wanted to come here sometime during spring break which would be lovely. We'll see. I miss Janina too. She's been in Europe for not even a year and it already feels like forever. Boo hoo, come back!
Welllllllll I really should start on this homework. PEACE!