lost in thought...
i've been pondering this last week.. about biljana... and i've been thinking maybe i should call her? today me and my friend went shopping... and shes one of my best friends, so i asked her if i should call her... she said no because, biljana would be expecting me to call and asking her to be my friend again... and of course thats not the reason i want to call her but i want to say sorry to her about how are friendship ended because we were just good friends, and cuz i wish our friendship hadnt ended this way is it was to end. i know that some people may think thats stupid but i mean im just not a person to hold a grudge and im too nice -.-
i miss her but i know i'll be happy... sometime i have doubts that maybe i did make the wrong choice..?
i wish i knew the answer to that question!
i guess out friendship ended for a reason and because it did this way it kind is like a sign that our friendship was going to end somehow...
i just ponder it sometimes but i think my friend maybe jsut said that because she, well i dont think she said that for my best intension but her own, if that made sense...
but i mean she was never ok with me liking him when tyler and biljana were going out... and i really dont think she likes that fact that now were a couple...
i dont know... i trust my friends and everything but i jsut have a gut feeling... *sigh*
i just want to call biljana becuase i hate how our friendship ended and i want to say sorry because i never ment for it to end this way... but then other times i think eh... what happened happened and theres nothign i can do because she said once he and i start going out shes never going to be my friend again or even consider it... grr she was harsh.
what should i do....?
i miss her but i know i'll be happy... sometime i have doubts that maybe i did make the wrong choice..?
i wish i knew the answer to that question!
i guess out friendship ended for a reason and because it did this way it kind is like a sign that our friendship was going to end somehow...
i just ponder it sometimes but i think my friend maybe jsut said that because she, well i dont think she said that for my best intension but her own, if that made sense...
but i mean she was never ok with me liking him when tyler and biljana were going out... and i really dont think she likes that fact that now were a couple...
i dont know... i trust my friends and everything but i jsut have a gut feeling... *sigh*
i just want to call biljana becuase i hate how our friendship ended and i want to say sorry because i never ment for it to end this way... but then other times i think eh... what happened happened and theres nothign i can do because she said once he and i start going out shes never going to be my friend again or even consider it... grr she was harsh.
what should i do....?