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I haven't written anything in here for about a month now, and there's a lot of things I could talk about. I could talk about Camp, first and foremost, and how (although I say this every year) it was really the best week of the year. I would give anything, anything, to be back there right now...surrounded by the people and places I love, without a care in the world. I don't think I'm going to be picked as a counselor this year, and it breaks my heart that I may never get to have an experience like that ever again. I've been trying to carry on what I've learned back to the "real world," but it's not easy. If it weren't for camp I don't think I'd be the slightest bit religious, and now I'm thankful that I am. For the first time in a long time this week, I actually prayed.
And then there's college. As far as the University of Massachusetts Dartmouth goes, it's pretty sweet here. My classes for the most part are great, I've made a lot of new friends, and I'm loving the freedom of not living at home. On the downside, I got in way over my head, basically fucked up several peoples lives, I'm constantly on an emotional roller coaster, and I did something I regret with every breathe I take. I've never felt so horrible in my entire life, but at the same time, I'm trying to focus on school, suck up the guilt, and live life.
So besides all that bullshit, things are ok. I auditioned for UMD's production of the Rocky Horror Picture Show. It's just as inappropriate and awesome as the Harvard Square show, and we perform on Halloween night. I can't wait to get involved with 20 Cent Fiction and Theatre Company, which both seem wicked chill.
All I want to do is move on from this, but I'll never have the courage to leave you behind.
I'm too weak, and I'm so sorry.
And then there's college. As far as the University of Massachusetts Dartmouth goes, it's pretty sweet here. My classes for the most part are great, I've made a lot of new friends, and I'm loving the freedom of not living at home. On the downside, I got in way over my head, basically fucked up several peoples lives, I'm constantly on an emotional roller coaster, and I did something I regret with every breathe I take. I've never felt so horrible in my entire life, but at the same time, I'm trying to focus on school, suck up the guilt, and live life.
So besides all that bullshit, things are ok. I auditioned for UMD's production of the Rocky Horror Picture Show. It's just as inappropriate and awesome as the Harvard Square show, and we perform on Halloween night. I can't wait to get involved with 20 Cent Fiction and Theatre Company, which both seem wicked chill.
All I want to do is move on from this, but I'll never have the courage to leave you behind.
I'm too weak, and I'm so sorry.