Ranting.
I need to go on a rant. You don't NEED to read this but if you care, then go ahead.
I suppose just so that I feel somewhat intelligent I'll put this in paragraph form, with a paragraph for each thing that's bothering me.
First of all, I am so sick of people "joking with me" that it's not even funny. And no offense to the people who do it, but sometimes it goes too far and I'm really getting tired of it. You need to settle down. You guys act like I don't have feelings. Joking is fine, but to a certain extent.
Next, I feel like there is some sort of anti-Ashley wall that some of my good friends from Fraser are putting up
and I'd like to know why. I honestly feel like everytime I make an effort to spend time with you guys, it gets thrown back in my face. I am honestly making an effort to stay close to you guys. Just because I'm a lot more busy now, and I hang out and talk to my show choir friends a majority of the time does NOT mean that I forgot about you guys or that I like them better. I just have more of a chance to talk to them than I do you guys. There is always something going on with them, so there's always a chance to hang out with them. Sometimes I find it difficult to make plans with you guys. I honestly do miss you though, and with a few people in particular, it's starting to hurt. When you go from best friends to almost never hanging out, I don't know about you but it makes me really sad and I'd like to fix it.
Third, my life is just so busy right now that I don't know what to do with myself. It seems as if I can never just sit and relax, because if I am sitting, I'm doing homework or memorizing something. And if I'm not doing either of those, I'm in school, at show choir, at auditions, at meetings for certain things, helping my mom with the new twins, or cleaning the house for my mom because she is never home anymore. I mean, it's pretty bad when you have to lose sleep because of homework. But I just feel that my grades are one of the most important things right now. I need to keep doing well, if not pushing myself to do better.
Lastly, I would like to ask all of you to do something for me. This is probably one of the most important things that is bothering my right now... If you:
a) would like to know something about me
b) have heard a rumor and would like to know if it's true
or
c) have something to say about me to other people....
PLEASE, take it up with me. Anytime my name comes out of your mouth, you should be saying it to me. My business is only your business if I choose to tell it to you. You should not believe any rumor unless you've heard it escape my lips. If I tell you to keep something a secret, please, just do so. It is not very hard to be a good friend, and yet, some of you seem to be struggling so hard with the term "true friend." Come on guys... we all know that anything about me should be taken up with ME. After all, I AM the one who will know the most about it since I am the one you are running your mouth about. Okay? Thanks.
I suppose just so that I feel somewhat intelligent I'll put this in paragraph form, with a paragraph for each thing that's bothering me.
First of all, I am so sick of people "joking with me" that it's not even funny. And no offense to the people who do it, but sometimes it goes too far and I'm really getting tired of it. You need to settle down. You guys act like I don't have feelings. Joking is fine, but to a certain extent.
Next, I feel like there is some sort of anti-Ashley wall that some of my good friends from Fraser are putting up
and I'd like to know why. I honestly feel like everytime I make an effort to spend time with you guys, it gets thrown back in my face. I am honestly making an effort to stay close to you guys. Just because I'm a lot more busy now, and I hang out and talk to my show choir friends a majority of the time does NOT mean that I forgot about you guys or that I like them better. I just have more of a chance to talk to them than I do you guys. There is always something going on with them, so there's always a chance to hang out with them. Sometimes I find it difficult to make plans with you guys. I honestly do miss you though, and with a few people in particular, it's starting to hurt. When you go from best friends to almost never hanging out, I don't know about you but it makes me really sad and I'd like to fix it.
Third, my life is just so busy right now that I don't know what to do with myself. It seems as if I can never just sit and relax, because if I am sitting, I'm doing homework or memorizing something. And if I'm not doing either of those, I'm in school, at show choir, at auditions, at meetings for certain things, helping my mom with the new twins, or cleaning the house for my mom because she is never home anymore. I mean, it's pretty bad when you have to lose sleep because of homework. But I just feel that my grades are one of the most important things right now. I need to keep doing well, if not pushing myself to do better.
Lastly, I would like to ask all of you to do something for me. This is probably one of the most important things that is bothering my right now... If you:
a) would like to know something about me
b) have heard a rumor and would like to know if it's true
or
c) have something to say about me to other people....
PLEASE, take it up with me. Anytime my name comes out of your mouth, you should be saying it to me. My business is only your business if I choose to tell it to you. You should not believe any rumor unless you've heard it escape my lips. If I tell you to keep something a secret, please, just do so. It is not very hard to be a good friend, and yet, some of you seem to be struggling so hard with the term "true friend." Come on guys... we all know that anything about me should be taken up with ME. After all, I AM the one who will know the most about it since I am the one you are running your mouth about. Okay? Thanks.