things on my mind
so i went on a date last week with a boy and it was really good, i was left feeling giddy. tonight we went on another date, also really good and mmmmm i love kissing, it's like my favourite thing to do, lol.
but i found out that he once went on a date with a girl i know, and it was such a turn-off because she irks me so much and i can't believe he made out with her (even though this was like 4 years ago haha). it's just kind of a slap in the face from her, once again.
but no matter who i go on dates with, i'm always left wondering if it's worth it. I'm not the kind of person who thinks you have to be in LOVE with every person you date, it's how life works, you date people, have boyfriends and girlfriends, and you break up if the time comes to that and life goes on. But I always find myself picturing the end - how will the break-up go? I think this is unhealthy. I must be stopped.
and then there are people who continue to go out with someone who is completely toxic. I have a couple friends in this situation, and it makes me so mad. I understand it because I used to be stuck in a fucked up rollercoaster too, but I just don't understand how you can continue to date someone who has said such awful things to you. Yeah, fine you love them...HOW???
bah.