I love us both but I dont feel good , so I keep pulling over and looking under the hood.....
i don't feel good so ...
now do my problems include
talks with doctors who don't even understand
about food?
i think in ancient china they kinda
figured out how the body works
but our culture is just a roughneck
teenage jerk
with a bottle of pills
and a bottle of booze
and a full round of ammunition
and nothing to lose
I feel soooo bad. I finally got some sleep last night , but I had weird dreams so it feels like I didnt sleep at all. I made a smoothie this morning and took about 2 sips of it before feeling full and sick. And Im pretty damn sure its all because my brain is pulled in a million directions at once and I'm freaking out about a few things right now. Its exactly what was happening before November. September and October..and pretty much the whole summer before that SUCKED and left me feeling more than a little bit off. Nothing fixes everything and eventually the same damn problems are staring you in the face. It would help if I could pinpoint the problem.Oh , and I have to work today. Why do I have to be so damn responsible? Its fucking stupid , really. I would honestly quit my job if mom werent counting on me to save up 5000 bucks by the end of summer.