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im at ians house right now.. hes on the phone but im on the computer, depressed, yeah. today was fun though, i had my birthday party, we went bowling, that was fun. im so glad i got to spend time with kaila.. i really like her a lot.. after bowling, i went to rockys with kaila kent sammie jose ian and robert. that was real fun. pretty much all i did was hold kaila and play ddr, awesome. but, on another note.. im depressed right now. i really wish i was as cool as ian sometimes.. then i wouldnt be depressed, wouldnt have to worry about anyone not liking me because im the coolest kid alive, and i would have more of a life. everything sucks with mine sometimes, i just wish i wasnt like this. depressed, an asshole, and just fucked up. it makes it worse to now realize that all these people who i dont talk to now think i hate them and that im an asshole, i dont know why they get that perception, and thats not really have it even is.. i dont mean to not talk to people sometimes, im just that much of an asshole.. well, enough of my bullshit, end.