xmas
Whenever I see the time on my phone reads 23:23 I reflexively make a wish. Then I realize I'm actually 12 minutes late...damn.
the worst year of my young life ended 4 days ago in 35 minutes. yet already i feel as though a weight has lifted.
last years resolution: To be a better person
this years resolution: To be exactly who I am.
Im done playing nice and letting others use me and push me around. Im speaking my mind and standing up for myself.
more on this later...
ANYways,
so my trip to NJ was exactly how I feared (minus the "baby-sitting" part). the term 'overwhelmed' is an understatement. Seriously, I have a picture from the trip where I literally have the deer in headlight, what have you done to me, get me outta here look. My mother literally had to sit down she was laughing so hard when she saw it. lol. But really aside from the never a moments peace/what am i doing here moments, it really was a wonderful trip. I was super super upset i didnt get to see philly but i got a grand tour of Jersey and the Jersey shore. It was great getting to see my cousins and I was OBSESSESED with the cold weather. the lunar eclipse was pretty cool. the hockey game was legit (even though we lost). Randomly running into my nephews and brother at the hockey game was weird but comfortable. and i loved getting to see my aunt dee and uncle larry. they havent changed a bit..except for Uncle larry's cars. he has a new Regal he's working on and a brand new red camaro. haha, i kinda miss uncle larrys antique corvette. but anyway, long story short, good trip but like mom said "there's a reason I waited 22 yrs to send you to visit them. you wouldnt have survived otherwise.."
Upon my return, I was able to hang out with my favorite lemon bay boy. his family was having a big xmas eve party so i drove up for awhile. its an hour drive but it was worth it. we haven't seen each other in almost four year but it was almost like it was just yesterday. He introduced me to his entire family and it was interesting to see their reactions. it ranged from approval to indifference. a few thought i was his girlfriend, they were the most entertaining to watch judge me and i like to think i passed muster. haha.
he told me all about his life and his job with the air force and his new girlfriend. theyve been dating a month, and she and i have the same birthday and major/life plan (i found that all alittle too coincidental)i could tell he was stressing because less than ten minutes he had me sitting on the couch and was telling me about how he trusted her and wanted her to trust him, etc. etc. The poor soul. it was obviously something he had been worrying about. i did my best to assure him. of what im not entirely sure. I just kept agreeing with him. It seemed like the right thing to do. A funny part was when he mentioned that he was glad he was taller than me cause he'd always been intimidated by me cause we were the same height. i found that statement amusingly adorable. but the best part of the convo was when he was saying how the girls he dates he would never speak to again after they broke up, and i made the comment "well im glad we never dated!" to which he replied "no no, we would never be like that. you are respectful and have too good a heart. we would still be friends im sure". I swear to god that is the nicest compliment anyone has EVER given me. i was pleasantly speechless. but in all honest it is probably a true statement. for all of the three or four times he and I have actually hung out, i do consider him one of my good friends. but yeah. so after that convo, he showed me a model of the planes he works on. I find jobs like that fascinating. I really wish I knew machinery better. I would love to learn how to take stuff apart and put it back together. They had a small fire going outside and guess what else...they had oysters!!! I was kinda shocked. i guess Ive just gotten so used to associating eating oysters in NOLA and restaurants that i forgot people just eat them normally. I absolutely love raw oysters and not gonna lie, it was incredibly hot watching him shuck one for me. Random I know but Im used to eating oysters in fancy places with my friends that eating one among strangers that was caught that day in water I live on that it was just such a rare treat. He had a wonderful big family and they were all fascinating to meet/watch. being a single child, i dont experience large family gathering ever. So I visited with him for about an hour before deciding to head home. it was afterall around 11 on xmas eve. said our goodbyes and not gonna lie for the space of a heartbeat i was sad he had a new girlfriend because i secretly really wanted a kiss. i mean it was my birthday. haha. but still it was so wonderful to see him. he always makes me feel happy and people like that are exceedingly rare in my life nowadays
well if you're still reading, i applaud your tenacity. if you just skipped to this, the next paragraph, you didn't miss anything.
Xmas was great. relaxed, lovely, fun. I was super bummed my dad didn't get me a shotgun for my birthday though. I reallllllly wanted my own. oh well.
I surprised mother with a trip to Orlando to see Blue Man Group and to go to Harry Potter world. IT WAS SO MUCH FUN!! she even said it was the best christmas she's ever had. BMG was phenomenal and HPW was incredible. we had to wait all day just to get in because you have to get separate tickets just to get into the HP part and we didn't know that so we couldn't get in till after 5:30. but still it was so worth it! the town looked just like the movie and the atmosphere was just excellent. you could tell everyone was so excited. mom and I both bought wands and chocolate frogs and butterbeer (which is really cream soda with vanilla flavored froth. it was delicious). the only downside was that it was in the low 30's the whole time but the town is winter themed so like my mom said "it was ok cause it really felt like we were in the story". Seriously, if you haven't been and you love harry potter, GO!
On that note, Im going to head to bed. i was planning on writing about NYE but Im not ready to tackle that story tonight as it is late and i am still exhausted from it! haha
the worst year of my young life ended 4 days ago in 35 minutes. yet already i feel as though a weight has lifted.
last years resolution: To be a better person
this years resolution: To be exactly who I am.
Im done playing nice and letting others use me and push me around. Im speaking my mind and standing up for myself.
more on this later...
ANYways,
so my trip to NJ was exactly how I feared (minus the "baby-sitting" part). the term 'overwhelmed' is an understatement. Seriously, I have a picture from the trip where I literally have the deer in headlight, what have you done to me, get me outta here look. My mother literally had to sit down she was laughing so hard when she saw it. lol. But really aside from the never a moments peace/what am i doing here moments, it really was a wonderful trip. I was super super upset i didnt get to see philly but i got a grand tour of Jersey and the Jersey shore. It was great getting to see my cousins and I was OBSESSESED with the cold weather. the lunar eclipse was pretty cool. the hockey game was legit (even though we lost). Randomly running into my nephews and brother at the hockey game was weird but comfortable. and i loved getting to see my aunt dee and uncle larry. they havent changed a bit..except for Uncle larry's cars. he has a new Regal he's working on and a brand new red camaro. haha, i kinda miss uncle larrys antique corvette. but anyway, long story short, good trip but like mom said "there's a reason I waited 22 yrs to send you to visit them. you wouldnt have survived otherwise.."
Upon my return, I was able to hang out with my favorite lemon bay boy. his family was having a big xmas eve party so i drove up for awhile. its an hour drive but it was worth it. we haven't seen each other in almost four year but it was almost like it was just yesterday. He introduced me to his entire family and it was interesting to see their reactions. it ranged from approval to indifference. a few thought i was his girlfriend, they were the most entertaining to watch judge me and i like to think i passed muster. haha.
he told me all about his life and his job with the air force and his new girlfriend. theyve been dating a month, and she and i have the same birthday and major/life plan (i found that all alittle too coincidental)i could tell he was stressing because less than ten minutes he had me sitting on the couch and was telling me about how he trusted her and wanted her to trust him, etc. etc. The poor soul. it was obviously something he had been worrying about. i did my best to assure him. of what im not entirely sure. I just kept agreeing with him. It seemed like the right thing to do. A funny part was when he mentioned that he was glad he was taller than me cause he'd always been intimidated by me cause we were the same height. i found that statement amusingly adorable. but the best part of the convo was when he was saying how the girls he dates he would never speak to again after they broke up, and i made the comment "well im glad we never dated!" to which he replied "no no, we would never be like that. you are respectful and have too good a heart. we would still be friends im sure". I swear to god that is the nicest compliment anyone has EVER given me. i was pleasantly speechless. but in all honest it is probably a true statement. for all of the three or four times he and I have actually hung out, i do consider him one of my good friends. but yeah. so after that convo, he showed me a model of the planes he works on. I find jobs like that fascinating. I really wish I knew machinery better. I would love to learn how to take stuff apart and put it back together. They had a small fire going outside and guess what else...they had oysters!!! I was kinda shocked. i guess Ive just gotten so used to associating eating oysters in NOLA and restaurants that i forgot people just eat them normally. I absolutely love raw oysters and not gonna lie, it was incredibly hot watching him shuck one for me. Random I know but Im used to eating oysters in fancy places with my friends that eating one among strangers that was caught that day in water I live on that it was just such a rare treat. He had a wonderful big family and they were all fascinating to meet/watch. being a single child, i dont experience large family gathering ever. So I visited with him for about an hour before deciding to head home. it was afterall around 11 on xmas eve. said our goodbyes and not gonna lie for the space of a heartbeat i was sad he had a new girlfriend because i secretly really wanted a kiss. i mean it was my birthday. haha. but still it was so wonderful to see him. he always makes me feel happy and people like that are exceedingly rare in my life nowadays
well if you're still reading, i applaud your tenacity. if you just skipped to this, the next paragraph, you didn't miss anything.
Xmas was great. relaxed, lovely, fun. I was super bummed my dad didn't get me a shotgun for my birthday though. I reallllllly wanted my own. oh well.
I surprised mother with a trip to Orlando to see Blue Man Group and to go to Harry Potter world. IT WAS SO MUCH FUN!! she even said it was the best christmas she's ever had. BMG was phenomenal and HPW was incredible. we had to wait all day just to get in because you have to get separate tickets just to get into the HP part and we didn't know that so we couldn't get in till after 5:30. but still it was so worth it! the town looked just like the movie and the atmosphere was just excellent. you could tell everyone was so excited. mom and I both bought wands and chocolate frogs and butterbeer (which is really cream soda with vanilla flavored froth. it was delicious). the only downside was that it was in the low 30's the whole time but the town is winter themed so like my mom said "it was ok cause it really felt like we were in the story". Seriously, if you haven't been and you love harry potter, GO!
On that note, Im going to head to bed. i was planning on writing about NYE but Im not ready to tackle that story tonight as it is late and i am still exhausted from it! haha