I will either need anti-depressants or anti-anxiety drugs by the endof this semester
Funny thing about people always seeing you smile is they can never tell when you're hurting.
I think I'm starting to lose it. I'm constantly on the verge of tears. Ive gone to class without makeup these past two days (ive ever done that since middle school. Blonde eyelashes are sooo awkward. Lol) I have no desire to go out with friends. I just drove down gale lemerand with all my physics books on top of my car. Classy, I know. Mother called me stupid and for a guidance councilor, offers very shitty advice. I called dad in tears today, something I have NEVER ever done (tears are a sign of weakness, blah blah blah) and he told me to call him back. Wtf. And he "has the hockey game At six, so sometime before that" *frowns* seriously if my child ever called me emotionally distraught/texted me the things I'd sent, I'd think thy were suicidal. (but I'm NOT so I guess it doesn't matter). And now I'm starting to think my date doesn't want to come on the woodser :( he doesn't want to go to mothers before hand or to tridelt to drink. He says he'll just have a few drinks at his place then meet me at the buses. WTF.
&& did I mention failing a physics quiz/pre-lab/lab.
God I'm fucked.
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