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I know I'll probably get yelled at for this, but I'm really having a dilmea here. What is so wrong with being addicted to pain pills. No, I'm not addicted, but I can totally see it happening, but I don't see the harm. The only time I feel normal, happy and pain free is when I take pain medication (ultracet). Shouldn't I be able to feel like this all the time? I'm sick of always being in pain. And I'm sick of having to take pills when I know I have to do some kind of normal activity like clean, do laundry, have a night out with friends just to get through it without being in such pain I have to either not finish whatever i'm doing or leave my friends early because I can't stand the pain anymore.
So please...tell me why I shouldn't take these pills every day!!
In other news, my brother and his fiance are no longer engaged. I guess that makes her the girlfriend now, but he woudln't clarify to my parents if they had broken up, or just ended the engagement. But he did tell my dad that he's already over her, so I'm thinking they're done. I feel so bad for him. Sure, he was such a dick to me when I moved out here as coolwhipdiva can attest to, but he's still my brother and we're right back to where we were before I moved in with him back home - just about best friends. I just feel so bad. We both thought we'd be married by this age (he's a year older than me) and he wants kids so bad - she doesn't. We both thought we'd be well on our way to having families. So yeah...I hope that he'll pull through this and find a fabulous woman who appreciates him. Anyone no any nice single ladies in Grand Rapids, Michigan for him?? :)
And I'm beginning to freak out a little about turning 30. I'm not sure if it's the 30 part or the rest of the stuff. I'm definitely beginning to realize that no, I can't have kids. That's really bothering me lately. Can't afford a pet to take place of a kid. So I think that's what's really bothering me more than the 30 thing. Because really...30 must be better than what 29 was to me!
So there it is...a glimpse into what is on my mind today!