Life Fucking Sucks!!
Well fucking great, today acually turned into one of the worst fucking days. Had a bad day in school and dont know if i even want to go to school no more, i got inschool on tuesday then heres where it starts. Ok last night im talkingto sara on the phone, she says hey ill call u back later. I wait up cause ill fall asleep and sleep through the phone. So i got no call ok whatever no big deal. I come to find out shes with this person that i dont trust and she told me she would never just like hang out with him alone. So i come to find out they made plans last nite and he spent the nite and she thinks its ok when she would of killed me if i would of done something like that. I dont know maybe i just fail as being a boyfriend anymore. I always get hurt and shit around this time. I dont know what i do wrong, its not like im a dick boyfriend that holds her on a leash, if anything i thought i was a great b/f. All i did was try and help. Sometimes i wish i would just disapear and hope that everyone just forgot about me the next day. It just seems like when everything as perfect(as i just said in my last entry)everything just falls back apart. I cant be happy more then a day striaght without running into something. Maybe i just need to change who i am or something cause i havent been having any luck the past 3 years straight. I hate these fucking entrys only because i hate complaining cause it reminds me of my old self. I just dont have anyone to talk to and need some one to let this all out. Sorry for anything i have done.