Sunday, 16 November, before breakfast
[PRIVATE]
My life has turned upside-down as of late, and I wouldn't want to change any of it. It's frightening, it's... wonderful, it's... I haven't even words for all of it.
How long has it been since the first time Mike and I were together? Has it been two weeks? Has it been three weeks? I think back on it, and it feels like I've known him forever, not just two or three short weeks.
And, once again, I've fallen behind in keeping up with this journal, so I'll start with what happened Wednesday.
We agreed to meet in the library Wednesday morning, after my class. I took out my school things once I was there, and started to get ready to work... but I couldn't. It was impossible to concentrate, while Michael sat right in front of me... so we decided to go elsewhere to study.
We did study, too... I think we made some good progress. It was just... so much easier to study, when we could touch each each other without fear of being seen.
We saw each other that night as well, of course, and it was wonderful, as it always is. I woke up very early in the morning, before it was even light out, I think, and Michael was crying. I kept quiet, pretending to be asleep, but it was difficult, knowing that he was upset about something. I asked him about it Thursday night, and he told me the whole story, which led to our telling each other that we love each other. It was... amazing, and frightening, but so very perfect at the same time. I can't stop kissing him when we're together anymore. I never thought I'd love anyone so much, especially after having only known each other for such a short time, really.
We agreed to go to Hogsmeaded today. I'm very much looking forward to spending time with him... I'm always eager to spend time with him, whether it's to just be together, or if we're just studying, or if we're making love.
Draco knows how I feel for Michael... and I know they've been together at least once - at the Halloween ball - I'm a bit... frightened? to see how that is going to turn out. I want Michael to myself - I don't want to share him, I'm selfish, and I don't care.
I'll leave here, I have to get ready to meet Michael.
My life has turned upside-down as of late, and I wouldn't want to change any of it. It's frightening, it's... wonderful, it's... I haven't even words for all of it.
How long has it been since the first time Mike and I were together? Has it been two weeks? Has it been three weeks? I think back on it, and it feels like I've known him forever, not just two or three short weeks.
And, once again, I've fallen behind in keeping up with this journal, so I'll start with what happened Wednesday.
We agreed to meet in the library Wednesday morning, after my class. I took out my school things once I was there, and started to get ready to work... but I couldn't. It was impossible to concentrate, while Michael sat right in front of me... so we decided to go elsewhere to study.
We did study, too... I think we made some good progress. It was just... so much easier to study, when we could touch each each other without fear of being seen.
We saw each other that night as well, of course, and it was wonderful, as it always is. I woke up very early in the morning, before it was even light out, I think, and Michael was crying. I kept quiet, pretending to be asleep, but it was difficult, knowing that he was upset about something. I asked him about it Thursday night, and he told me the whole story, which led to our telling each other that we love each other. It was... amazing, and frightening, but so very perfect at the same time. I can't stop kissing him when we're together anymore. I never thought I'd love anyone so much, especially after having only known each other for such a short time, really.
We agreed to go to Hogsmeaded today. I'm very much looking forward to spending time with him... I'm always eager to spend time with him, whether it's to just be together, or if we're just studying, or if we're making love.
Draco knows how I feel for Michael... and I know they've been together at least once - at the Halloween ball - I'm a bit... frightened? to see how that is going to turn out. I want Michael to myself - I don't want to share him, I'm selfish, and I don't care.
I'll leave here, I have to get ready to meet Michael.