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made this entry public....everyone needs to read it.....everyone.
i wish poeple read this....no one ever does so why write anything or care what im saying...so here it is....all truth.
ive given up on almost everything.....i lost control of everything a while back and havent admitted it...theres so much ive wanted to say....too bad i havent.
i have so much shit i want to say...im ready to explode. i want to scream and cry and laugh and run at the same time, god i want to run out of this shithole town. im not ment for the suburbs....i know. it bores me. im bored. i need to go. i want to puke. im shaking.
i hold emotional scars cut so deep i dont know if they will ever heal....the worst part is i dont quite know what they're from. i dont have anyone to blame. i blame myself for not being good enough.
but i miss myself. i lost me. i lost it. i dont feel like im good enough. i feel like everythings all wrong and i cant fix it. no one can. i feel seperated from my friends... i seem to always be in the middle of a fight or somthing. so in the simpilest form:
- first off everyone at my lunch table....get over your selfs and let who ever sit where ever.... your seriosly acting like 5 year olds....i know i did it too for a while but im over it....after realizing the sheer stupidity of it.
- also gina is cool....you dont even know her. you have no idea how nice she is.
- yes i admit carissa is annoying, dont be so cruel. she gets enough of it.
- EVERYONE NEEDS TO GET OVER THEM SELVES AND NOT BE SO FUCKING SELF CENTERED. people need to stop judging and talking about people. stop being bitches and taking everything so fucking serious. learn to laugh at yourself.
- look past looks. not only other poeples but yours too. stop caring so much what others think. i know it is eaiser said then done. dont ever think you ugly or whateveer...dress up...wear make up... put on your favorite clothes....make your self feel beautiful....and you will be. i sound like your mother. i just need to say somthing.
- live with no regrets....have no shame....do everything....
- okay lastly, love everyone.....fogive everyone....hold no grudges.
i started out all angry and shit....but i feel better, happier even. say what you mean and mean every word, even if it makes no sense at all....like everything i just said. im happy now.
i wish poeple read this....no one ever does so why write anything or care what im saying...so here it is....all truth.
ive given up on almost everything.....i lost control of everything a while back and havent admitted it...theres so much ive wanted to say....too bad i havent.
i have so much shit i want to say...im ready to explode. i want to scream and cry and laugh and run at the same time, god i want to run out of this shithole town. im not ment for the suburbs....i know. it bores me. im bored. i need to go. i want to puke. im shaking.
i hold emotional scars cut so deep i dont know if they will ever heal....the worst part is i dont quite know what they're from. i dont have anyone to blame. i blame myself for not being good enough.
but i miss myself. i lost me. i lost it. i dont feel like im good enough. i feel like everythings all wrong and i cant fix it. no one can. i feel seperated from my friends... i seem to always be in the middle of a fight or somthing. so in the simpilest form:
- first off everyone at my lunch table....get over your selfs and let who ever sit where ever.... your seriosly acting like 5 year olds....i know i did it too for a while but im over it....after realizing the sheer stupidity of it.
- also gina is cool....you dont even know her. you have no idea how nice she is.
- yes i admit carissa is annoying, dont be so cruel. she gets enough of it.
- EVERYONE NEEDS TO GET OVER THEM SELVES AND NOT BE SO FUCKING SELF CENTERED. people need to stop judging and talking about people. stop being bitches and taking everything so fucking serious. learn to laugh at yourself.
- look past looks. not only other poeples but yours too. stop caring so much what others think. i know it is eaiser said then done. dont ever think you ugly or whateveer...dress up...wear make up... put on your favorite clothes....make your self feel beautiful....and you will be. i sound like your mother. i just need to say somthing.
- live with no regrets....have no shame....do everything....
- okay lastly, love everyone.....fogive everyone....hold no grudges.
i started out all angry and shit....but i feel better, happier even. say what you mean and mean every word, even if it makes no sense at all....like everything i just said. im happy now.