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Every day I get overwhelmed with dissapointment and sadness in the awfulness of the every day human being.
I lose hope nearly every day in ever finding a soul that will make me happy the rest of my life, and feel like life is
worth living, that the world is beautiful, that feelings and things unseen do exist.
I want to give up everyday on everyone and everything, but at some point while I'm driving alone in my car and any good song
comes on, it brings me back to some good feeling, or memory of why I love life and have fun.
I find no possibility in meeting someone to make me feel life is beautiful, but at one point in everyday I get one moment of hope.
So it's still there. It's in me somewhere. I feel there may be still some possibility of a person making me happy again, and I can only hope I can do the same for them too.
I do not consider myself depressed, I just think way too in depth and am so over dealing with anyones bullshit and stupidity.
I won't be accepting of anyone for a while, and I have in my mind that, that is the way it's suppose to be.
-I apologize if anyone reading this thinks it's pessimistic and stupid, but I'd appreciate it if you just DON'T read it, or just ignore it. Because after all, this may be livejournal, but it is MY journal. And I write what I think and feel whether anyone likes it or not. That's why everyone has their own.
I lose hope nearly every day in ever finding a soul that will make me happy the rest of my life, and feel like life is
worth living, that the world is beautiful, that feelings and things unseen do exist.
I want to give up everyday on everyone and everything, but at some point while I'm driving alone in my car and any good song
comes on, it brings me back to some good feeling, or memory of why I love life and have fun.
I find no possibility in meeting someone to make me feel life is beautiful, but at one point in everyday I get one moment of hope.
So it's still there. It's in me somewhere. I feel there may be still some possibility of a person making me happy again, and I can only hope I can do the same for them too.
I do not consider myself depressed, I just think way too in depth and am so over dealing with anyones bullshit and stupidity.
I won't be accepting of anyone for a while, and I have in my mind that, that is the way it's suppose to be.
-I apologize if anyone reading this thinks it's pessimistic and stupid, but I'd appreciate it if you just DON'T read it, or just ignore it. Because after all, this may be livejournal, but it is MY journal. And I write what I think and feel whether anyone likes it or not. That's why everyone has their own.