Apr 20, 2003 17:45
I love Fred Astaire.
I love Judy Garland.
I watched Easter Parade today on TCM.
I'd just managed to wake up when it started.
How lucky I feel.
It's pretty sad when I base my luck around just catching a movie on television.
And then I watched Spirited Away. That movie is just weird, but I was stuck on it.
People are so talented.
Both unfortunately and unluckily, I'm not.
Don't try and tell me I am. I've already tried that. I just can't, or I'm not satisfied with my "talent". I don't know.
So, I don't want to go back to the way I was, but then I also don't want to stay where I'm at. And I really can't go any forward.
Ever experience that? Probably.
I was immensely sick today, and then I slept it off. But don't worry. I didn't need my sleeping pills, so those won't be wasted and will be saved for a better time. Good, good.
Remind me never to skip and "forget", because I really don't want to experience those symptons again.
I love clowns, still. It's not really a "weird" obsession. They just appeal to me greatly. Their purpose is to make people laugh, though they do the opposite sometimes, but that's beside the point.
They hide. Their identity is concealed. They're to make people happy and laugh.
That's what I want, but I know I wouldn't have the patience to learn the tricks.
I'll try anyway.
It's a dream.
I love you.
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Juliet is up in heaven, pocket full of pills...
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I need to brush my teeth, again. Then I need to floss. I love mint floss.