HOW TRUE IS THIS?!
I was reading myspace blogs and Lauren wrote this. It's sooo true, it's crazy!
Your heart feels so empty, that it seems it needs more oxygen then you are getting. Sometimes I feel that all I can do is pretend to be happy...you want to seem happy and you want to keep a positive attitude. The smile only covers up the complete emptiness you feel deep inside. Here's my philosophy: once you love someone, you build your life around them. You change, Your heart changes. And the only thing that seems to matter is love. Once that love is lost, where do you go from there? You spend your whole entire life looking for that same person--that same kind of love you once had. I believe that there is only one kind of love for every person. You might find someone who you care about and in return they care about you, and will share a lot of things with this person, but they will in no way match up to the one who broke your heart. The worst thing that can happen, is seeing the person you TRULY love and miss everyday, talking with them everyday...except it's not that person you fell in love with. It's someone totally different, someone who has totally changed! Almost like a stranger...you can't even imagine that you knew them at one point, that you held hands with them, that you kissed them, that you laughed with them because you don't even know who they are. The worst way to miss someone is to be standing right next to them and knowing you can't have them. I hate when he looks at me with those eyes I love, but his eyes now seem so cold. The smiles and laughs I remember, but don't recognize anymore...they have changed. The only thing I can do is to try to love someone new but it will never happen. I will NEVER be able to love someone they way I loved him! It didn't hurt when he said goodbye, it was when he said hello again and I realized he was still part of my life, but a completely different person.
LAUREN! UR SOO SMART! lol
Your heart feels so empty, that it seems it needs more oxygen then you are getting. Sometimes I feel that all I can do is pretend to be happy...you want to seem happy and you want to keep a positive attitude. The smile only covers up the complete emptiness you feel deep inside. Here's my philosophy: once you love someone, you build your life around them. You change, Your heart changes. And the only thing that seems to matter is love. Once that love is lost, where do you go from there? You spend your whole entire life looking for that same person--that same kind of love you once had. I believe that there is only one kind of love for every person. You might find someone who you care about and in return they care about you, and will share a lot of things with this person, but they will in no way match up to the one who broke your heart. The worst thing that can happen, is seeing the person you TRULY love and miss everyday, talking with them everyday...except it's not that person you fell in love with. It's someone totally different, someone who has totally changed! Almost like a stranger...you can't even imagine that you knew them at one point, that you held hands with them, that you kissed them, that you laughed with them because you don't even know who they are. The worst way to miss someone is to be standing right next to them and knowing you can't have them. I hate when he looks at me with those eyes I love, but his eyes now seem so cold. The smiles and laughs I remember, but don't recognize anymore...they have changed. The only thing I can do is to try to love someone new but it will never happen. I will NEVER be able to love someone they way I loved him! It didn't hurt when he said goodbye, it was when he said hello again and I realized he was still part of my life, but a completely different person.
LAUREN! UR SOO SMART! lol