cruel summer...
hmm it's been a while.
and i can't think of anything really exciting to write about.
oh wait, yes i can. i had surgery on my knee. i went to boston to have surgery, and they didn't even end up doing the osteotamy, but it was still open surgery for ligament reconstruction and then they cut some other ligaments and removed all this crap from underneath my patella. so yea, what does that mean? well, that the summer has been spent inside my house so far. the muscle in my thigh has shrunk. i have NO strength/control/ability to move my right leg at all. the only part of my leg i can move is my foot, and what good is wiggling around ur toes? i'm in a leg immobilizer, which keeps my leg completely straight. i can't get up by myself, sit down by myself, i even need my mom's help when i have to go take a shower, where I have to sit in a chair cuz i can't stand without the crutches for too long. i have to be on a torture machine 6 hours a day, that bends my knee and hurts so bad i cry after i'm done because my leg is so sore that any movement hurts. i start physical therapy on tuesday, and i dont know how i'm gonna do it because the pain is getting worse everyday and my ability to do anything is diminishing as well. i'll probably be in the leg brace all summer. crutches...hopefully i'll be off by the end of july? but i really don't know how it's gonna go. leaving my house requires a lot of work and kills the rest of my body because i have to compensate for not being able to move my leg. it's not worth the pain of it, so i've left my house twice since may 20. once to go to tia nori's, and wednesday when i flew to boston to have my stitches taken out. note to everyone: dont ever have surgery.
needless to say, the summer kinda sucks. but i'm glad that i have people who love me and who have cared enough to drop by and see how i'm doing. first of all anthony, who comes over every single day. his summer is kinda shot, too, since mine is. but he's the best and i love him so much because he's been so good to me through all of this, bringing me an ottoman -haha, and taboo, and vitamin waters, and ice cream, and drawing with me. couldn't ask for a better boyfriend <3. and then of course, eddie's been here a lot (with junk food), and vinny's come quite a few times too, and kim came with magazine and seasons 7 & 8 of Friends, and gina's been by a lot to watch our boys with me, and ali came by a couple of times, and krystina brought me starbucks!, and whippa stopped by on ehr birthday, and noe was here with two other people as his get well soon gift to me, and best friend and lara (who i hate because she's doin so well after HER surgery), and alex even came by, oooh and my roomie bameLa brought me a stellar ring!, pitts dropped by yesterday (which meant a lot since he's only home for a few days before goin back to wisconsin), nuno was here, stub came by, michele also came over, gabby and don paid a visit as well, and L-hub came by last nite with crafts! which i am so excited to do when she comes back again!! woohoo! plus family of course, and i love my primos. so yea, thank you to everyone who's made it a point to come see me because you don't even know how much happier it's made me. shit gets depressing when you're doing the same thing every day and you can't go out and enjoy your summer like you normally would.
so because my summer is so unexciting, i really wanna do the summer show and vocal workshop. but i'm not moving around like i thought i might be doing by now. so idk if that's gonna happen or not. plus, let's be real. the show has four parts, but she might cast 8. is there really a place for a girl on crutches? i mean, by the time the show comes around i should be off crutches, but i just dont know. it's impossible to tell how fast this recovery will be. maybe i'll just do the workshop? even that's gonna be a pain to get out of the house for though. aww but i love everyone who's doing it so much. idk, we'll see i guess.
alright that's enough...
EDIT: finally my loves allie and katie came by!!! they surprised me with noe, and my fatty boom batty krystina was over and i had such a wonderful night because i love them all so much. thank you for making my day <3
and i can't think of anything really exciting to write about.
oh wait, yes i can. i had surgery on my knee. i went to boston to have surgery, and they didn't even end up doing the osteotamy, but it was still open surgery for ligament reconstruction and then they cut some other ligaments and removed all this crap from underneath my patella. so yea, what does that mean? well, that the summer has been spent inside my house so far. the muscle in my thigh has shrunk. i have NO strength/control/ability to move my right leg at all. the only part of my leg i can move is my foot, and what good is wiggling around ur toes? i'm in a leg immobilizer, which keeps my leg completely straight. i can't get up by myself, sit down by myself, i even need my mom's help when i have to go take a shower, where I have to sit in a chair cuz i can't stand without the crutches for too long. i have to be on a torture machine 6 hours a day, that bends my knee and hurts so bad i cry after i'm done because my leg is so sore that any movement hurts. i start physical therapy on tuesday, and i dont know how i'm gonna do it because the pain is getting worse everyday and my ability to do anything is diminishing as well. i'll probably be in the leg brace all summer. crutches...hopefully i'll be off by the end of july? but i really don't know how it's gonna go. leaving my house requires a lot of work and kills the rest of my body because i have to compensate for not being able to move my leg. it's not worth the pain of it, so i've left my house twice since may 20. once to go to tia nori's, and wednesday when i flew to boston to have my stitches taken out. note to everyone: dont ever have surgery.
needless to say, the summer kinda sucks. but i'm glad that i have people who love me and who have cared enough to drop by and see how i'm doing. first of all anthony, who comes over every single day. his summer is kinda shot, too, since mine is. but he's the best and i love him so much because he's been so good to me through all of this, bringing me an ottoman -haha, and taboo, and vitamin waters, and ice cream, and drawing with me. couldn't ask for a better boyfriend <3. and then of course, eddie's been here a lot (with junk food), and vinny's come quite a few times too, and kim came with magazine and seasons 7 & 8 of Friends, and gina's been by a lot to watch our boys with me, and ali came by a couple of times, and krystina brought me starbucks!, and whippa stopped by on ehr birthday, and noe was here with two other people as his get well soon gift to me, and best friend and lara (who i hate because she's doin so well after HER surgery), and alex even came by, oooh and my roomie bameLa brought me a stellar ring!, pitts dropped by yesterday (which meant a lot since he's only home for a few days before goin back to wisconsin), nuno was here, stub came by, michele also came over, gabby and don paid a visit as well, and L-hub came by last nite with crafts! which i am so excited to do when she comes back again!! woohoo! plus family of course, and i love my primos. so yea, thank you to everyone who's made it a point to come see me because you don't even know how much happier it's made me. shit gets depressing when you're doing the same thing every day and you can't go out and enjoy your summer like you normally would.
so because my summer is so unexciting, i really wanna do the summer show and vocal workshop. but i'm not moving around like i thought i might be doing by now. so idk if that's gonna happen or not. plus, let's be real. the show has four parts, but she might cast 8. is there really a place for a girl on crutches? i mean, by the time the show comes around i should be off crutches, but i just dont know. it's impossible to tell how fast this recovery will be. maybe i'll just do the workshop? even that's gonna be a pain to get out of the house for though. aww but i love everyone who's doing it so much. idk, we'll see i guess.
alright that's enough...
EDIT: finally my loves allie and katie came by!!! they surprised me with noe, and my fatty boom batty krystina was over and i had such a wonderful night because i love them all so much. thank you for making my day <3