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Without you, I don't exist.
Yea that's how I feel right now. I've been in an awekward mood. I just can't get happy. Although last night at work cleaning made me happy for some reason. But then after that I was a wreck again. I think I cried for 2 hours straight, and then somehow created such a suction in my head where it felt like it was going to implode. It's just, so complicated. When you love someone and you're so attached to them, and then you can't see them, for whatever the reason. I've lost people close to me before, and I guess I'm just paranoid? I don't know, if you want to get technical I haven't lost anyone. It may feel that way right now, but it's for the moment I guess. Just gotta keep telling myself things will change and be wonderful and I'll feel better about myself and about life.
I don't know, I probably don't make sense but quite frankly, I don't want to make sense. I don't want people to understand what I mean by this entry. I feel like a week ago I was happy. How depressing is that, within one week going from happy to a mess.
I miss Pokemon. I haven't had the desire to play as of late.
I miss the one instead of the three.
I miss the smells that bring a smile to my face. Like clean laundry.
I miss smiling, not a smile from laughing, not one when your happy to see somebody. That smile you get when you feel good, and you're just....happy, and nothing can bring you down.
I miss July. July was a feel good month. Especially certain days. Others were not so good.
I miss the beach. I only got to go once this year, and I wish it was warm enough to do it again.
I miss cuddling. I've always been a cuddly person.
I miss hugs. They feel so safe and secure.
and last but not least.
I miss you. =(
come hug me
Yea that's how I feel right now. I've been in an awekward mood. I just can't get happy. Although last night at work cleaning made me happy for some reason. But then after that I was a wreck again. I think I cried for 2 hours straight, and then somehow created such a suction in my head where it felt like it was going to implode. It's just, so complicated. When you love someone and you're so attached to them, and then you can't see them, for whatever the reason. I've lost people close to me before, and I guess I'm just paranoid? I don't know, if you want to get technical I haven't lost anyone. It may feel that way right now, but it's for the moment I guess. Just gotta keep telling myself things will change and be wonderful and I'll feel better about myself and about life.
I don't know, I probably don't make sense but quite frankly, I don't want to make sense. I don't want people to understand what I mean by this entry. I feel like a week ago I was happy. How depressing is that, within one week going from happy to a mess.
I miss Pokemon. I haven't had the desire to play as of late.
I miss the one instead of the three.
I miss the smells that bring a smile to my face. Like clean laundry.
I miss smiling, not a smile from laughing, not one when your happy to see somebody. That smile you get when you feel good, and you're just....happy, and nothing can bring you down.
I miss July. July was a feel good month. Especially certain days. Others were not so good.
I miss the beach. I only got to go once this year, and I wish it was warm enough to do it again.
I miss cuddling. I've always been a cuddly person.
I miss hugs. They feel so safe and secure.
and last but not least.
I miss you. =(
come hug me