...."...im dyin' and i cant live without you again..."....

[_behindblu_eyes]

hmm, 14 days. many happenings. good thing i havent written in this thing for a while, or you would've gotten some major rage issues. ummmm, lemme think...so, last time i wrote was the third. okay so..that was a monday night. yup, i got it now. that night, i remember talking on the phone to bobby for...quite a while...pretty dern late. go figure. we both decided that that was cool the next day, and we kinda decided we were gonna kinda, do that 'talkin' thing. sooo, here i go again. i kinda wanted to start the new year off on a..'clean slate' but that didnt go through too well, considering someone was already 'interested' in me again. soooo, i went to school that wednesday, and discovered my second semester classes. yeah they suck. sooo, the first week of school wasnt so bad. all three days. the weekend eventually came along and that was cool. :-D sunday dear bobby text messaged me and asked me if i wanted to do something. for 'restriction' purposes, we went to finley park for a little while. that was cool too. it brings funny stories of hobos hitting on me. :-\ lol. so we were still talking and stuff, obviously. then i went to school again on monday. the drama teacher, beasley, tells me nicole isnt choreographing my dance anymore. so i was super pissed. i had after school practices until 6:45 tuesday, wednesday, and thursday. they all sucked. i was running my brains out. constantly going. constantly doing something needless to say. i was beat by the time friday came along. kayla called me and asked me if i wanted to go bowling with her and her friends. bobby was working and stuff... and meredith was gettin her nails done, so i figured, why not? so i went with kayla and her friends. different from my usual friends, but theyre funny. haha. that was friday night. mkay sooooo, saturday.....i was at church all day. for stix. i hoped we touched...somebodys life. geez. we were only there for 10 hours....no lie. man. so, me and kayla came home after upward, and watched 50 first dates at my house. then she left. i was layin on the couch and i got a...disturbing...text message from bobby. i started freakin out so i called him and asked him what the heck he was doin. and...he told me, gradually laughing in between. at that point, i was pissed. as if my week hadnt sucked enough. i was so stressed for drama, and saturday night made it 10 times worse. so i got mad, and upset and cried and all that other gay stuff. i went to church the next morning, and apparently so did bobby. dont know how, but he did. he needed jesus anyway. but meredith told him i had a good reason to be mad at him. sooooo, i went to church later on that night again. me, sam, meagan, and kayla went to applebees. our waiter was so stoned. needless to say, i had badddd run-ins with stoned people allll weekend. >:-( go figure. but i wasnt mad our waiter was stoned, he was funny. the other wasnt so funny, and i was definetly NOT the one laughing about that matter. >:-O :'-( after that, we just drove around for alittle bit, and got desert at sonic. -shrug- then i came home, and got on the phone again. bobby called, as always, and told me the whole story, without laughing. welllll, by the time we got off the phone...we werent 'talking' anymore. -shrug- spit happens. one day....i swear, ill have a relationship more than 10 days. :-D i got so bored/semi-down, i text messaged brennan and told him that i heard about the stuff he wanted to tell me on friday night when my sister and meagan saw him. hes like, "yeah! blah blah blah, i gotta new girl! not that you care or anything." that boy is so funny sometimes. so im like..."thats cool, thats cool, she got to wk? blah blah blah" hes like, "no, she goes 2 gilbert blah blah blah." im like, "oh! gilbert! different schools USED to be a problem for ya." [[[[implying on myself]]]] hes like, "okay smartass, i trust her, and shes a good girl. blah blah blah." at this point, i start laughing because it was the first comical relief in quite a while. so i talked to him for a little bit. he wants to 'stay in touch'. -sigh- cant say i hate the guy. never will. sorry guys. its that 'first kinda "love" kinda deal.' ya know how that goes. not sayin i 'loved' that boy, because as old as i am, what the heck is love. -shrug- i dunno. guess ill find out ONE of these days. so that was the weekend. i got my hair cut today. that was cool. ate lunch with none other than myself..because my sister was gettin hers highlighted, and i got bored, and i was hungry. wasnt that bad. ;-) ;-) entertaining myself. :-D lol. anyways. gotta choreograph my OWN dance by tomorrow for drama. not lookin' forward to that. but....spit happens.

one boy down for 2005. how many more to go? dang, i dont wanna know.

later playas.

<3always
sarah**