The Golden Days are Gone
I finally know whats wrong, why I am so miserable.
Life is changing - too rapidly.
Graduating in 2 weeks isn't lessening that reality either. Friends are moving on, there is no longer the "let's go get trashed at 80s night" vibe. Its more, "let's go drink wine with my significant other and then fall asleep" vibe. It fucking sucks. Everyone is acting like they are getting married when they are only 21-23 yrs old.
Marriage does not exist in my world. Neither does love. I'm good with this. I'm good with not being good enough for those I love. I am just a stone in the driveway that causes a little bit of friction.
Maybe I would be happier if people saw this change too. Maybe I should just deal with the fact that what I want is not what everyone else wants. Maybe I should shut up, say nothing and continue to be miserable.
People fucking suck.
Life is changing - too rapidly.
Graduating in 2 weeks isn't lessening that reality either. Friends are moving on, there is no longer the "let's go get trashed at 80s night" vibe. Its more, "let's go drink wine with my significant other and then fall asleep" vibe. It fucking sucks. Everyone is acting like they are getting married when they are only 21-23 yrs old.
Marriage does not exist in my world. Neither does love. I'm good with this. I'm good with not being good enough for those I love. I am just a stone in the driveway that causes a little bit of friction.
Maybe I would be happier if people saw this change too. Maybe I should just deal with the fact that what I want is not what everyone else wants. Maybe I should shut up, say nothing and continue to be miserable.
People fucking suck.