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back to this again...seems like all i ever do on here is bitch about him, and for the most part it's what i do use it for. i really don't understand why i can't get it through my fat head that he just doesn't like me, he ended it for a reason, you'd think i'd get the point and i try not to care but it frustrates me so much when i try to call him to ask him one simple question and he will NEVER NEVER return my calls. why do i continue to do this to myself? i need to just let it go. have no clue why i keep wanting to go back to him, it's not like he's treated me even remotley decent these past 4 months or whatever. he's actually pretty much treated me like complete ass and last time i checked you're not supposed to treat your friends like that. so i wish (and i'm sure everyone that i bitch about it to wishes) that i could simply drop it and move on. so from right now 4th of july, i'm officially done (and i know if you're reading this you're probably thinking this is a load of shit) but something just hit me tonight, he doesn't like me, he will never like me again, get over it. he knows what he had and what he lost and if he doesn't really care then why should i? so from this minute on there will be no more. this will be the las LJ entry dedicated to bitching about him. i'm not calling i'm not answering i'm not doing anything, it's working for him so why waste anymore of my time on him? so there, you heard it here first. i'm done. and honestly, since he never calls me anyways, it shouldn't be to hard, if he can't have the decency to return my calls and have an answer to the one simple question that i have then my time that has been wasted on him will be spent otherwise. there's millions of guys out there, i'm about to turn 21, i don't need to mope around about this one, it's not worth it. i have a-mazing friends and that's more than enough right now.
on a lighter note, i bought a new mop today to clean our nasty-ass kitchen floor and jen and i cooked dinner for mike, which was really good! and i obviously have nothing else to say or complain about since i am now talking about cleaning. so i'll end with this...
Life is a balance of holding on and letting go... it's finally time i learn how to let go...
kell
on a lighter note, i bought a new mop today to clean our nasty-ass kitchen floor and jen and i cooked dinner for mike, which was really good! and i obviously have nothing else to say or complain about since i am now talking about cleaning. so i'll end with this...
Life is a balance of holding on and letting go... it's finally time i learn how to let go...
kell