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yeah i have come to the conclusion that everyone is like plotting against me or something. i mean they are all keeping secrets and have someone to be there for them but i definately dont and thats quite depressing. what are they thinking...seriously...i mean lets keep everything from alisha becuase she lives in a different town adn definatly is going to tell "all" her friends about whats happening. well news flash. i only have 2 friends that i actually talk to, yet it doesnt even feel like that anymore becuase we're slipping away (mostly due to guys)everyone else is like oh fuck you i dont give a shit what you want until i want the same. im not jealous i just fucking hate being alone and left out. ive been deserted way tpp many times and i dont need that anymore. ive tried so hard to keep everything goign good but i just cant pretend anymore and i cant let it go on any longer i need to figure out who my friends are before im hurt or disappointed anymore because as of now i cant handle it.. i cant handle this shit anymore. i just want to end it all adn i want people to stop always thinking solely about themsleves and look at the world around them adn realize that its crashing down. what the fuck!