ohh the joys of life
I'm starting to feel as if its time for me to sit myself down & trigger a breakdown. its been over two weeks & it hasn't happened. I'm afraid. besides me missing him, everything else in my life seems to be going okay. if I breakdown ill end up going back to my depression stage. I'm not ready for that.
god why do I continue to let this happen?
you know its funny, this time my wall was still up. I knew it was too good to be true & was scared of letting him break it down. I've learned a lot over the years thanks to him.
I feel so much more lost in life now that I'm back here. he was the reason I was so stable. he's the reason I changed so much about myself. the things I changed were for me & were for the better, he just helped me to realize them.
I think I'm gonna go get myself a notebook so I can start a written journal again. later days...
god why do I continue to let this happen?
you know its funny, this time my wall was still up. I knew it was too good to be true & was scared of letting him break it down. I've learned a lot over the years thanks to him.
I feel so much more lost in life now that I'm back here. he was the reason I was so stable. he's the reason I changed so much about myself. the things I changed were for me & were for the better, he just helped me to realize them.
I think I'm gonna go get myself a notebook so I can start a written journal again. later days...