[lifes little lessons]
so dad comes home tomorrow. it's been quite nice having this place to myself. even though I've enjoyed living by myself this week, I started feeling lonely today.
after I got in that accident last week, I called my dad to bitch at him for not calling me to tell me they got into Washington safe. he told me last sat night my aunt Dana had a seizure in the car on the way to the reception place. I love how they still don't tell me and my sister anything. my cousin took me and my sister off his friends list on myspace. he's stupid. he's gonna get himself shot one of these days.
so last night was my last shift at the BA. it was short and I only made 38 bucks. oh well. afterwards I went over to Stephs. she made me a sunny d and bicardi razz drink. man I was pretty buzzed. thenn me, her and Shawn went and played pool. which Steph and I ended up getting totally shitfaced. came home and drunk dialed Brian, Derek, and Chad. I feel like an ass. plus I kept bugging my other friend Shawn cuz I didn't know where my car was. woke up this morning at 6, 7, and 9 to puke. I never realized one could puke so much within a three hour time span. speaking of which I barely had 3 drinks last night. but I knew going into the night that mixing liquor with juice always makes me sick. no bueno.
I gave my friend Brian at work the rest of my bud light. it was sad to see it go but it's not like I can really take it with me.
my Missy weeny isn't doing good at all. I've often thought many times this week that dad should just put her to sleep. she doesn't look healthy at all. she looks like she's in pain. she's going deaf. her perception is way off. I can't count how many times she's ran into the back door this week. she coughs non stop and just walks around in circles aimlessly. she can't hold her shit long enough to walk outside anymore. she's almost 15. I honestly think she's still doing good for her age and stuff, but I know she's in so much pain. I dunno =/
I realized tonight that very few people know I'm leaving; surprisingly. Steph, Kait, Shawn, Brian, Ross, Chels, Matt, and of course everyone from work, are the only one's who know. I wanted to keep it that way...yet I feel like an ass for not telling anyone else. I know I shouldn't feel that way at all seeing as how no one else talks to me anymore. Matty P and Yell are supposed to be like my bestfriends yet I haven't heard a word from either of them in months. Andy and Charles never respond to messages. neither does Aubrey. life after high school is finally coming clear to me.
I got semi attached to him again. I didn't want to. funny thing is, I got attached to him as a friend this time. nothing more. I miss him and I know I will definitely still miss him when I leave. I wanted him to come over tonight to watch movies so we could spend one last time together but just like all the other times, he's not coming. rawr.
my friend JJ was having a party tonight. I should'a went. and Ross wanted me to come over and drink with him one last time before I leave. I should'a did that too. ehhh I think I might call Ross up and see if I can still come over. I'll write more later. if not, I'll write when I get my computer hooked up in NC. later days.
after I got in that accident last week, I called my dad to bitch at him for not calling me to tell me they got into Washington safe. he told me last sat night my aunt Dana had a seizure in the car on the way to the reception place. I love how they still don't tell me and my sister anything. my cousin took me and my sister off his friends list on myspace. he's stupid. he's gonna get himself shot one of these days.
so last night was my last shift at the BA. it was short and I only made 38 bucks. oh well. afterwards I went over to Stephs. she made me a sunny d and bicardi razz drink. man I was pretty buzzed. thenn me, her and Shawn went and played pool. which Steph and I ended up getting totally shitfaced. came home and drunk dialed Brian, Derek, and Chad. I feel like an ass. plus I kept bugging my other friend Shawn cuz I didn't know where my car was. woke up this morning at 6, 7, and 9 to puke. I never realized one could puke so much within a three hour time span. speaking of which I barely had 3 drinks last night. but I knew going into the night that mixing liquor with juice always makes me sick. no bueno.
I gave my friend Brian at work the rest of my bud light. it was sad to see it go but it's not like I can really take it with me.
my Missy weeny isn't doing good at all. I've often thought many times this week that dad should just put her to sleep. she doesn't look healthy at all. she looks like she's in pain. she's going deaf. her perception is way off. I can't count how many times she's ran into the back door this week. she coughs non stop and just walks around in circles aimlessly. she can't hold her shit long enough to walk outside anymore. she's almost 15. I honestly think she's still doing good for her age and stuff, but I know she's in so much pain. I dunno =/
I realized tonight that very few people know I'm leaving; surprisingly. Steph, Kait, Shawn, Brian, Ross, Chels, Matt, and of course everyone from work, are the only one's who know. I wanted to keep it that way...yet I feel like an ass for not telling anyone else. I know I shouldn't feel that way at all seeing as how no one else talks to me anymore. Matty P and Yell are supposed to be like my bestfriends yet I haven't heard a word from either of them in months. Andy and Charles never respond to messages. neither does Aubrey. life after high school is finally coming clear to me.
I got semi attached to him again. I didn't want to. funny thing is, I got attached to him as a friend this time. nothing more. I miss him and I know I will definitely still miss him when I leave. I wanted him to come over tonight to watch movies so we could spend one last time together but just like all the other times, he's not coming. rawr.
my friend JJ was having a party tonight. I should'a went. and Ross wanted me to come over and drink with him one last time before I leave. I should'a did that too. ehhh I think I might call Ross up and see if I can still come over. I'll write more later. if not, I'll write when I get my computer hooked up in NC. later days.