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what is wrong withme? why am I picking fights with everyone all of a sudden? I yelled at Andy tonight for something completely outragiously[sp?] stupid. I bit Shaneas head off and she has no idea what's going on. I broke my friendship with the person who was my bestfriend for 14 years. that wasn't my fault. I am glad I did that, yet I know I will be kicking myself in the ass soon when everyone finds out because I know our mutual friends are going to be mad at me. whatever. then I realize who my true friends are, right?
I haven't cried in weeks and now I'm fucking bawling like a baby. PMS has a small factor in all this, but I dunno where the rest is coming from. I just want friends who appreciate me. who act like they want me around. I want friends who invite me to hang out with them and don't just "assume" I'm always working or busy. I dunno. I really don't know what I'm doing wrong. I want to change. I want to fix it. I want to fix me.
I haven't cried in weeks and now I'm fucking bawling like a baby. PMS has a small factor in all this, but I dunno where the rest is coming from. I just want friends who appreciate me. who act like they want me around. I want friends who invite me to hang out with them and don't just "assume" I'm always working or busy. I dunno. I really don't know what I'm doing wrong. I want to change. I want to fix it. I want to fix me.