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i'm trying to hold myself together but its not easy. in addition to being sick (another cold or flu or whatever the fuck i seem to be getting all the damn time), my cat's been in the hospital all week. she's been hooked up to ivs and such. she has pancreatitis. she's going home today because she seems better, but it still worries me. she's barely eating and i'm not there to comfort her or take care of her. it's crazy how much i love an animal. i never thought i would ever get that attached to a pet, but i love my cat more than i can explain. she was there when i was alone and depressed, and if it weren't for her sitting with me and loving me, who knows what could have happened. i'm just so worried. i can't even bear to think what i'd do if she didn't make it.
and the boy who is supposed to be perfect and wonderful and exactly what i need is turning into another disappointment. i shouldn't be surprised. they always do.
i'm just trying not to feel sad. but it's hard. i just want to go home and get my cat and run away somewhere beautiful and quiet and just live and paint and be alone for a while.
and the boy who is supposed to be perfect and wonderful and exactly what i need is turning into another disappointment. i shouldn't be surprised. they always do.
i'm just trying not to feel sad. but it's hard. i just want to go home and get my cat and run away somewhere beautiful and quiet and just live and paint and be alone for a while.