hey...

[_barbiegrl_]

I really havn't updated in awhile..didn't have much time. I know I can't really sum up the past month and a half but I'll just tell ya whats new. Well Me and Kyle are still together for basically 3 months now. Totally bombed my recent guard competition with flying colors to the help of Terri's comments of encouragement..not. When will she learn that if u tell us we suck right before we perform that we will actually suck out there. We left with 2nd place out of 6 though so thats positive. We got home at 6 so i went over Kyle's house and I finally got to see the Sixth Sense! Yay I'm not a weirdo for never seein it anymore! Today we only had a 4 hour guard practice instead of 6. I was glad cause it was shorter but it ended up feelin just as long. I had to get fitted for my costume and I was all worked up about that and gettin shoes and everything that i forgot to get the key for Terri and she was like OMG U GUYS CAN'T EVEN REMEMBER WHAT I TOLD U 10 MINS AGO!!! Ok of coarse she didn't let me explain and plus it was more like 15 mins and she was like well u missed my speach so they'll just have to fill u in like it was my fault i had to go get fitted. W/E! Then Terri calls me up while we were practicin rifle and i though it was gonna be bout remembering better and she tells me I'm off rifle cause all i'm doing is hurting myself and pretty much I keep trying but it goes no where..So I guess I'm just a hopeless cause. I knew it was comming eventually cause I know i was god awful but of coarse I still watered up cause I was on rifle for like 2 seasons and a half. I had to learn all the flag stuff which is extremely slow it's annoying! And everytime I'd get my mind off it people would come and be like o u got takin off rifle and I felt so stupid cause I had it when people feel bad for me..makes me feel like I can't take care of myself. idk maybe it's just me. Terri took forever cleaning cause if someone dropped it was like God was gonna come down and curse u 2 hell. We spent 4 fuckin hours on the same section over and over again. At least Lauren has a part. About time she deserved one. That girl works her butt off to go to practices. She gets to run around with a basket throwing petals IT'S SO CUTE!!! Later when I was home Kyle knocked for me and i felt bad cause I was just bout to eat dinner and it would be awkward for him. Sides I was in a pretty bummy mood so I didn't talk much like my usual self. So he went home when I got called for dinner. Srry Lisa I can't throw my 100 for the last comp lol. But I'll show u again real soon! Well guess I'll update again ASAP.

I'm writing again these letters to you, on much i know but im not sleeping and you're not here the thought stops my heart