i just ate an entire bag of milano cookies.
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this is not cool
Obsession = bad stuff
I really need to stop this.
Before I get really sick. or die or something.
just kidding i dont think i could get that extreme
i hope not
but seriously
i need to balance out this self control issue
this is sickening
my head hurrrts
SPRING TRAACKK IS HERRREE!!!
perhaps this will help.
i hate food
emilya is freakin twenty. how insane is that
there is no friggin celery in this house. why does my mother insist on buying icecream 3163jifjosdl761783178
i have issues thinking about the future
I really don't know what I'm going to do about college.
It's so damn expensive.
And as much as I've tried forcing myself into phys. therapy or something that will actually earn me money..
I can't do it.
I feel like I just need to perform in some way and if i don't I'm just selling myself short.
"Perform" sounds so corny. But I don't know how else to describe it.
I have no idea what I want to do.
I can't imagine living without music or racing.
They seem like such polar opposites..but it's funny how similar they really are.
But do I really want to go to school focusing on stuff I like, where there's pretty much NO monetary guarentee, only to come out with a 120,000+ loan and have to slave away to pay it back?
Should I find something that will actually get me money and suck it up and not be happy?
But then, what's the point of saving up for someday when today's here..
does that make any sense?
I just want to travel, perform, live, laugh, love and be happy.
Wow, that sounds so cliche.
But it's true
And I am ridiculously unrealistic
But what's realism worth anyway?
What's the use in playing it safe
Kait Brook's entry is pretty much the man.
I feel so confused
Like I have to make all these life decisions today.
Like I'm running out of time.
hmmm..
i love my friends.
and sleep.
this is not cool
Obsession = bad stuff
I really need to stop this.
Before I get really sick. or die or something.
just kidding i dont think i could get that extreme
i hope not
but seriously
i need to balance out this self control issue
this is sickening
my head hurrrts
SPRING TRAACKK IS HERRREE!!!
perhaps this will help.
i hate food
emilya is freakin twenty. how insane is that
there is no friggin celery in this house. why does my mother insist on buying icecream 3163jifjosdl761783178
i have issues thinking about the future
I really don't know what I'm going to do about college.
It's so damn expensive.
And as much as I've tried forcing myself into phys. therapy or something that will actually earn me money..
I can't do it.
I feel like I just need to perform in some way and if i don't I'm just selling myself short.
"Perform" sounds so corny. But I don't know how else to describe it.
I have no idea what I want to do.
I can't imagine living without music or racing.
They seem like such polar opposites..but it's funny how similar they really are.
But do I really want to go to school focusing on stuff I like, where there's pretty much NO monetary guarentee, only to come out with a 120,000+ loan and have to slave away to pay it back?
Should I find something that will actually get me money and suck it up and not be happy?
But then, what's the point of saving up for someday when today's here..
does that make any sense?
I just want to travel, perform, live, laugh, love and be happy.
Wow, that sounds so cliche.
But it's true
And I am ridiculously unrealistic
But what's realism worth anyway?
What's the use in playing it safe
Kait Brook's entry is pretty much the man.
I feel so confused
Like I have to make all these life decisions today.
Like I'm running out of time.
hmmm..
i love my friends.
and sleep.