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i think
its over
but then i stop and think what makes something over and what makes something not over. it seems to me that things are always over. i'm addicted to the starts, but just as addicted to the ends, it's the middle i'm fucking terrified of.
perhaps i'm not a good person to date. all i've got to do is find some one who understands that i'm just not an easy person to date.
which sadly, is not to say i'm not easy.
truth is that i don't "got to do" anything. i don't have to find anyone. this is not a hunt, this is not some fucking hike in the woods. this is my life and i'm god damn sick of it revolving around the fact that i'm a bad girlfriend.
i am stopping in intersections all the time, i am standing in the middle of this big stupid campus, and i am screaming that i am young, i am stupid, and i am making mistakes.
and i better do it quick before i grow up.