shit

[_ball_and_chain]

im trying to take deep breaths and be as happy as i can be. buts so frekin hard. i broke up with mike lastnight. it is the strangest feeling ever. i know things are going to be just fine and Im hoping for the best. it was/is just time you know? two people going in different directions and wanting totally different things. its a bad time of year but the time of the year doesn't matter really. i havent talked to him since and i dont expect him to want to talk to me. i hope hes okay, i know hes busy which is a good thing right now. we are both strong people with big hearts so i know we are going to be friends. i don't want to loose everything and thats my biggest fear. his family means the world to me, they are like a second family with the biggest hearts ever. now im crying thinking im never going to see them again, or my best friend.
things will turn out the way they are supposed to. im not sad but not even else to being happy. things take time and lot of it
sigh