My Not-so-great Birthday
well today is my 20th birthday. woohoo. i swear as we get older birthdays totally lose
their excitement (well i doubt next year will). it was just a sad day. i havent had one in awhile so maybe i was due. i woke up at 3:30 in the freakin morning to go to work which was lame all on its own but i also had to start at a new checkpoint. im not the best with new people so i was not happy. nikki called me at 4:15 which was so sweet of her! christian texted me later and we made plans to go out to lunch before his date tonight. i had a really good time at that and we talked which made me feel a little better. afterwards we watched sex and the city (shocking) and once again i could totally relate. its just wonderful. i went home after and saw my parents. they didnt make a big deal out of my birthday which i guess i understand but it was still disappointing. they got me a cool gift i asked for (a cocktail carousel) but no card, no wrapping, nothing. just a bed bath and beyond bag with a gift i specifically asked for which took no thought at all. my best friend forgot my birthday. i know she is in france but come on! a text would have been nice! i mean something! oh, and just to top it all off my ex texted me. he was just "thinking of me and wanted to say happy birthday". im sooo tired of all that shit. i swear he does it just to fuck with my head (like he didnt do that enough for 5 years!) a friend of mine i havent seen or spoken to in 2 years called me to say happy birthday which was nice but a couple of my good friends didnt even do that. ugh! im such a whiner! i woke up in a bad mood and it has just progressed all day! 2 decades of my life are gone forever. ill never get them back, never get to change them, never get to be a teenager again. im now a twenty-something and its just terrifying!
i swear i am usually much more positive about life than this today just sucked. what a way to start off a new decade! oh well ill feel better tomorrow and everything will be fine. i have a great support net and i love my friends. whew. glad thats over now back to the me who doesnt care about stupid stuff like age and the number of people who call u on ur b-day.
their excitement (well i doubt next year will). it was just a sad day. i havent had one in awhile so maybe i was due. i woke up at 3:30 in the freakin morning to go to work which was lame all on its own but i also had to start at a new checkpoint. im not the best with new people so i was not happy. nikki called me at 4:15 which was so sweet of her! christian texted me later and we made plans to go out to lunch before his date tonight. i had a really good time at that and we talked which made me feel a little better. afterwards we watched sex and the city (shocking) and once again i could totally relate. its just wonderful. i went home after and saw my parents. they didnt make a big deal out of my birthday which i guess i understand but it was still disappointing. they got me a cool gift i asked for (a cocktail carousel) but no card, no wrapping, nothing. just a bed bath and beyond bag with a gift i specifically asked for which took no thought at all. my best friend forgot my birthday. i know she is in france but come on! a text would have been nice! i mean something! oh, and just to top it all off my ex texted me. he was just "thinking of me and wanted to say happy birthday". im sooo tired of all that shit. i swear he does it just to fuck with my head (like he didnt do that enough for 5 years!) a friend of mine i havent seen or spoken to in 2 years called me to say happy birthday which was nice but a couple of my good friends didnt even do that. ugh! im such a whiner! i woke up in a bad mood and it has just progressed all day! 2 decades of my life are gone forever. ill never get them back, never get to change them, never get to be a teenager again. im now a twenty-something and its just terrifying!
i swear i am usually much more positive about life than this today just sucked. what a way to start off a new decade! oh well ill feel better tomorrow and everything will be fine. i have a great support net and i love my friends. whew. glad thats over now back to the me who doesnt care about stupid stuff like age and the number of people who call u on ur b-day.