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ehh today was alrite. i woke up early becuz my family has zero respect for the sleeping. went to practice batting w/ the ritzs and now my arm hurts. then i had a bball game. we won finally. but now my knee hurts from that. then i came home and slept and then i babysat. nothing interesting.
i've been thinking about a lot of things lately which i don't even think is a good thing. i need to stop thinking about things so much. i really don't understand some people. most people. i never know what people are thinking about me which makes me nervous that they hate me. i never will know what people think about me but i still want to. and i really can't stand when people hate me and they don't even know me. just becuz they think something about me... that i don't even think is true. i don't even know how to express how i feel about everything. i'm really... confused about life and about people. i don't even know how to act around anyone anymore becuz people might start to hate me if i act the wrong way. someone told me that becuz i joke around alot people might take it seriously and think of me as a bad person. so am i not supposed to joke around and be myself? am i supposed to be some perfect little angel and please everyone? sorry for ranting but people just piss me off and confuse me and i just don't know about anything anymore. i'm done now i guess.
i've been thinking about a lot of things lately which i don't even think is a good thing. i need to stop thinking about things so much. i really don't understand some people. most people. i never know what people are thinking about me which makes me nervous that they hate me. i never will know what people think about me but i still want to. and i really can't stand when people hate me and they don't even know me. just becuz they think something about me... that i don't even think is true. i don't even know how to express how i feel about everything. i'm really... confused about life and about people. i don't even know how to act around anyone anymore becuz people might start to hate me if i act the wrong way. someone told me that becuz i joke around alot people might take it seriously and think of me as a bad person. so am i not supposed to joke around and be myself? am i supposed to be some perfect little angel and please everyone? sorry for ranting but people just piss me off and confuse me and i just don't know about anything anymore. i'm done now i guess.