--gLeNdALe GaLLeRiA--
glendale.. gosh.. well i woke up at around 11:45 today .. idunno yesterday i went to sleep pretty early.. i felt kinda sad for some reason.. i mean im so bored all thee time i just create things in my head... like all the drama i cause its all cux idunno i just think too much!! i dont mean to but idunno its just happens! and i really dont know 'what i want' ..talking to dex yesterday made me think is marvin a bad guy or a good guy? is he a player is he not.. to me he isnt.. but maybe thats thee 'game' but hey who knows.. but once again i just had to bring it up!! i mean why do i always do that.. like ill say to him sure if u wanna get to know me make an effort..but its like not everyone opens up like i do online..he isnt an online person hes more of a face to face person and he told me that but stupid idiot me keeps.. sigh.. i just push people away dont i? ..well right now.. thats all with that subject ill talk to him later online.. -- think happy aileen .. think happy--
well so anyways i went online when i woke up.. and it kind of got on my nerves because angie promised shed go to every dead norman gig with me and shes also the reason why i can go because my mom knows her mom and u know if angie can go then i can go.. and i told angie a month ago that okay we'll go to this one.. i mean its not till thee 27th btut still shes like no i dont wanna go and its like shes a total friend failure.. i mean i wanna go so bad but because of her i cant... and it just makes me sad in a way because i really wanna go.. i mean i know lauren wanted to go but because of her past with marvin its probably areally bad idea.. and idunno whats new.. i mean i guess i could ask mitch but id feel horrible because he does way to much to "help me" when he like picks me up at home so i can go places ..so i feel bad!! but my parents just refuse to takeme placeslike at night and if they dont know them they make a big deal about it which is totally unfair...and im gonna cry because ive been looking forward to that for a month.. sigh .. whats new? disappointment is just easy coming for me isnt it? ..well if god really does love me he'llfigure a way to let me go..--pleaselet me go!!! please--
well anyways mitch picked me up @ about 1 and we wen to thee glendale galleria.. parking is so impossible there. but eh eventually so we went shopping for his ring for christina which was soo wow!! we both felt soo accomplished.. like its crazy!! we went to thee jeweler and we found this amazing like beautiful ring but it was like not in thee price range for him.. sincehe was paying for it and he doenst realy havea job but wow the guy there omg he gave him like 40$ back and its just amazing..i can t even explain.. i mean u do not run into sweet guys like that everyday.. ones that like really 'care' man i feel soo uplifted and he really made my day!! well whats really sad is mitch and i were there from 130-like.. 5 and idunno that was pretty long.. and we were walking like back an fourth in thee mall getting presents for people.. i didnt find real thoughtful gifts for any of my friends so i didnt buy anything other then... haha food! but well ..ill wait till thee clothes and whatever change in thee stores but basically im tired of thee glendale galleria!!extremely.. well it was a pretty productive day i have to say! like whoa i mean i talked to mitch a lot and it just felt productive.... another thing that made my day.. i just felt sooo..like idunno loved .. we didnt really go into full detail but like i told mitch that i liked marvin..nd he asked like how old he was and where did i meet him and stuff..and be careful...and hes like just so you know aileen we have to meet him.. and im like are you serious and hes like yeah ur not dating him or anything without me and juan meeting him.. and for some reason i just loved mitch (and juan) more then anything to like whoa maybe they do care..idunno i just felt so ..well i get what i mean... hmm well im home and eh im gonna go watch tv and just hope that i will talk to marvin later... and i think id feel a lot better if mitch and juan actually met him because hey theyre guys they should know whos pimpin it and whos not...
well so anyways i went online when i woke up.. and it kind of got on my nerves because angie promised shed go to every dead norman gig with me and shes also the reason why i can go because my mom knows her mom and u know if angie can go then i can go.. and i told angie a month ago that okay we'll go to this one.. i mean its not till thee 27th btut still shes like no i dont wanna go and its like shes a total friend failure.. i mean i wanna go so bad but because of her i cant... and it just makes me sad in a way because i really wanna go.. i mean i know lauren wanted to go but because of her past with marvin its probably areally bad idea.. and idunno whats new.. i mean i guess i could ask mitch but id feel horrible because he does way to much to "help me" when he like picks me up at home so i can go places ..so i feel bad!! but my parents just refuse to takeme placeslike at night and if they dont know them they make a big deal about it which is totally unfair...and im gonna cry because ive been looking forward to that for a month.. sigh .. whats new? disappointment is just easy coming for me isnt it? ..well if god really does love me he'llfigure a way to let me go..--pleaselet me go!!! please--
well anyways mitch picked me up @ about 1 and we wen to thee glendale galleria.. parking is so impossible there. but eh eventually so we went shopping for his ring for christina which was soo wow!! we both felt soo accomplished.. like its crazy!! we went to thee jeweler and we found this amazing like beautiful ring but it was like not in thee price range for him.. sincehe was paying for it and he doenst realy havea job but wow the guy there omg he gave him like 40$ back and its just amazing..i can t even explain.. i mean u do not run into sweet guys like that everyday.. ones that like really 'care' man i feel soo uplifted and he really made my day!! well whats really sad is mitch and i were there from 130-like.. 5 and idunno that was pretty long.. and we were walking like back an fourth in thee mall getting presents for people.. i didnt find real thoughtful gifts for any of my friends so i didnt buy anything other then... haha food! but well ..ill wait till thee clothes and whatever change in thee stores but basically im tired of thee glendale galleria!!extremely.. well it was a pretty productive day i have to say! like whoa i mean i talked to mitch a lot and it just felt productive.... another thing that made my day.. i just felt sooo..like idunno loved .. we didnt really go into full detail but like i told mitch that i liked marvin..nd he asked like how old he was and where did i meet him and stuff..and be careful...and hes like just so you know aileen we have to meet him.. and im like are you serious and hes like yeah ur not dating him or anything without me and juan meeting him.. and for some reason i just loved mitch (and juan) more then anything to like whoa maybe they do care..idunno i just felt so ..well i get what i mean... hmm well im home and eh im gonna go watch tv and just hope that i will talk to marvin later... and i think id feel a lot better if mitch and juan actually met him because hey theyre guys they should know whos pimpin it and whos not...