The Past is Now
Today I looked at him and for a split second I didn't find him attractive anymore, I didn't see him like I always see him. He was someone I didn't know so well. But memories came back and everything was back to normal and I saw him like I usually do. For that split second he was just another guy. I haven't felt like that aout him since before I met him. Since before he changed. I know I'm getting over him but I'm holding on, I want to hold on, even though it hurts me I need to let him know I need to know what is really going on. Everynight I go to bed thinking the same thing, a life with him in it. If he read this right now he must think I'm a crazy person and foolish to still be in love but I can't help it, I'm holding onto the past while everything around me went forward and I guess he didn't want to stay and se what was in store for the two of us. I know he felt something, even if it was just a stupid little crush that lasts for a week, it was there and now it's gone but I'm still living in the period of time we both felt the same way.