Love is in the air but to far away to grab onto it
Jeezes, I wish I could update like Angela she remembers everything and writes t all down. My fingers start hurting like after one paragraph haha.
School isn't so bad, sometimes I find it fun, like the other day I was interested in what I was learning in World Cultures. In some of my classes I get this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach, like butterfiles or whatever people call it. It gets me so anxious and I can't wait to leave class. I really hate this feeling, it makes me not concentrate on anything and well I realyl ahte feelign anxious, it makes me feel sick to my stomach. And in lunch I can barely eat anything becuase of this feeling and the fact that the kid I like is in the room and theone causing these feeling. I just wish i could do something about this whole thing, like I don't know tlak to him, but whenever i try I get that anxious feeling and I can't even smile. But I am trying to do soething about it, i tried smiling but he looked down right as i was smiling so I guess I'm going to have to try again. And it took so much courage to force myself to smile...I hope i can do it again. But i know if i don't atleast try something I'll regret it all my life. I think this is the only time that I ever even attepted to do something about me liking someone. I'm very surprised at myself but at the same time proud. Maybe something will happen, I mean al i really want at the moment is to get a reaction from him, then we'll move on to the next step...lol. I just wanted to say thanks to Angela for always being there to listen to my rambling.
School isn't so bad, sometimes I find it fun, like the other day I was interested in what I was learning in World Cultures. In some of my classes I get this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach, like butterfiles or whatever people call it. It gets me so anxious and I can't wait to leave class. I really hate this feeling, it makes me not concentrate on anything and well I realyl ahte feelign anxious, it makes me feel sick to my stomach. And in lunch I can barely eat anything becuase of this feeling and the fact that the kid I like is in the room and theone causing these feeling. I just wish i could do something about this whole thing, like I don't know tlak to him, but whenever i try I get that anxious feeling and I can't even smile. But I am trying to do soething about it, i tried smiling but he looked down right as i was smiling so I guess I'm going to have to try again. And it took so much courage to force myself to smile...I hope i can do it again. But i know if i don't atleast try something I'll regret it all my life. I think this is the only time that I ever even attepted to do something about me liking someone. I'm very surprised at myself but at the same time proud. Maybe something will happen, I mean al i really want at the moment is to get a reaction from him, then we'll move on to the next step...lol. I just wanted to say thanks to Angela for always being there to listen to my rambling.