new lj due to hacking.
Have you ever thought about the word "believe"? I don't think any of you have. It's kind of weird. I'm still in that "thinking about everything" phase. I was thinking about that word the other day. What are you supposed to believe in? Do you believe in love? Love at first sight? "Best" friends? God?
What is love? What are best friends? Who's God? Who invented the idea of God?
I know that love is being able to fight & makeup five minutes after. It's looking at the stars, playing with sparklers & fireworks, it's kisses in the rain. It's not caring about what the other person thinks about the way you look. And it's not like the things in movies, TV, books ..
This is reality. Life isn't always going to work out how you want it to. People are going to hate you. Sometimes you're going to hate yourself. Sometimes you're going to hate the people who hate you. And sometimes you can be having the worst day of your life, but you talk to that one person, and they'll be able to fix everything.
I know that best friends will talk about you behind your back. But they should tell you about it. "People who gossip with you, gossip about you." I'm not going to lie, I do gossip. Alot. Everyone does without knowing it. You can all deny it, but if you think about it, you gossip without even thinking. But I think I've actually found my "best friends". I hadn't talked to Alex in years, and we started talking & becoming friends again. Now we hang out constantly. I had only met Lys once before this summer, and it was only for about 15 minutes when we went out for icecream with Veronica. Now she and I talk all the time & see eachother a good amount. I've seen her more than I've ever seen Veronica. Which is weird. I love Veronica. But she'd never really had time for me. But now she does. Which makes me pretty happy. No one in CASA has talked to me since I decided I'm out. Whatever. Rayna & Frankie are happy, Michaela & Mike are happy, Beth & Donna are happy. I don't know. Maybe I should give up on them. Maybe I shouldn't. I have no idea.
I don't really believe in God. I never really have. Maybe I will someday. I don't know what I believe in. I believe in the past and future. And that's it.
What is love? What are best friends? Who's God? Who invented the idea of God?
I know that love is being able to fight & makeup five minutes after. It's looking at the stars, playing with sparklers & fireworks, it's kisses in the rain. It's not caring about what the other person thinks about the way you look. And it's not like the things in movies, TV, books ..
This is reality. Life isn't always going to work out how you want it to. People are going to hate you. Sometimes you're going to hate yourself. Sometimes you're going to hate the people who hate you. And sometimes you can be having the worst day of your life, but you talk to that one person, and they'll be able to fix everything.
I know that best friends will talk about you behind your back. But they should tell you about it. "People who gossip with you, gossip about you." I'm not going to lie, I do gossip. Alot. Everyone does without knowing it. You can all deny it, but if you think about it, you gossip without even thinking. But I think I've actually found my "best friends". I hadn't talked to Alex in years, and we started talking & becoming friends again. Now we hang out constantly. I had only met Lys once before this summer, and it was only for about 15 minutes when we went out for icecream with Veronica. Now she and I talk all the time & see eachother a good amount. I've seen her more than I've ever seen Veronica. Which is weird. I love Veronica. But she'd never really had time for me. But now she does. Which makes me pretty happy. No one in CASA has talked to me since I decided I'm out. Whatever. Rayna & Frankie are happy, Michaela & Mike are happy, Beth & Donna are happy. I don't know. Maybe I should give up on them. Maybe I shouldn't. I have no idea.
I don't really believe in God. I never really have. Maybe I will someday. I don't know what I believe in. I believe in the past and future. And that's it.