Unwanted

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♥Nothing Has Improved Since My Last Entry....Things Only Got Worst...I'm Really Hating My Life Right Now...I Dont Even Want To Be Anymore...All I Have To Look At Right Now Are Lies And Constant Insults And Bitching...I Dont Know What To Do Anymore. I'm Really Hurt....I Feel Like No One Cares Anymore.....And I'm Trying To Hold Back My Tears But Its Just To Hard Now...Even Though I've Been Crying For Hours I Cant Really Stop...Once I Stop It All Starts All Over Again....I Just Cant Take The Lies And The Insults Anymore...I Feel Like I'm Falling Into Pieces....And Theres Really Nothing I Can Do About It...But Maybe I Deserve All This...For Being So Stupid...But One Thing They Dont Know Is That They're Killing Me Inside Slowly...And There Goes My Heart....

I sit here clutching useless lists
And keys for doors that don't exist
I crack my teeth on pearls
I tear into the history
Show me what it means to me in this world
Yeah in this world

'Cause I am due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes
Till I understand or go blind

I see the parts but not the whole
I study saints and scholars both
No perfect plan unfurls
Do I trust my heart or just my mind
Why is truth so hard to find in this world
Yeah in this world

'Cause I am due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes
Till I understand or go blind (till I understand or go blind)

I know that there's a point I've missed
A shrine or stone I haven't kissed
A scar that never graced my wrist
A mirror that hasn't met my fist
But I can't help feeling like I'm

Due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign (waiting for a sign)
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes (and I won't close my eyes)