not studying biochemistry?

[_asyousleep]

i should be, but i need a break. my brain is overflowing, and i keep getting so angry at myself for biting my nails again. i love my new pharmy friends and studying with them/not. it makes it a whole lot easier to get through my days. i love my living situation and how much fun i have goofing around with yvette and jli when i get home. we do the most random things together that always make me laugh, even if it's dumb shit like going bowling in the union between classes, or piling into the same bed to watch movies and youtube videos. i can't wait for florida georgia. the only thing that sucks is i don't really get to see too much of my high school friends anymore. but i try to when i can. i've been having really weird dreams lately, and have been feeling strange things and missing people/things that i normally don't. i keep missing home a lot, i really miss my dad, and my grandma. ...and my brother, and my mom. and sammy. and, lucky.. i've had at least 3 dreams in the past week that lucky didn't really die. i'm still having a hard time with it, and even with accepting it sometimes because it seems like it won't really hit home till i go back home and he's not there. he's always been there, for 14 years. how can he not be anymore? my mom told me that sammy frantically runs around and meows at everyone and that he seems really distressed and keeps looking for lucky. that makes me sad :(. but i'm glad to know he's not suffering anymore at least, because that was breaking my heart.
tomorrow is going to be a really really really busy, long, stressful day. i almost wish i could just come home and sleep after i'm done with my presentation and meetings and exam, but i've already committed to bowling socials and downtown with pharmies. after that, i will sleep like a baby. and i will do absolutely no school work on friday, and i will lay in bed and do nothing but watch tv or lay by the pool. i will not be watching any of these bullshit supplemental lectures that my professors seem to think they can record and make us watch on our day off. and it will be amazing.
until then...