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i've been feeling pretty overwhelmed lately. i feel as if, while the semester has only really just begun, it's so close to ending at the same time. the last two weekends jason was here, so those 2/3 weeks flew by, and this past weekend i spent studying for my first round of exams this week. as soon as they're over, i'm flying to new york with my brother for my grandpa's 80th birthday. i come back on sunday and then wednesday, jason's coming for valentines day and staying the week. the next weekend i'll be going home for my dad's birthday, and then i have to study for another set of exams, right before spring break during which i'm going to boston again. which takes me a little past halfway through the semester. in a way im glad i have things to do, but i feel like i won't have any time to just sit and relax. it's not so much being busy that scares me, it's being busy with hard classes that does it. i'm scared of not doing well in orgo again this semester, i dont really know what i'll do if i dont. im nervous about applying to pharmacy schools in the fall, or even more about doing well on pcats in the next few months. i feel like i should be working/researching/and maybe taking classes this summer.. and then finishing up my classes in the fall and spring to get going with pharmacy. where did college go? i really feel like i just got here and im already getting ready to leave. last night i was hanging out with my brother and he was asking me when i plan on graduating. i said next spring- to which he said.. me too. i'm graduating at the same time as my brother who's two years older than me? that weirds me out on so many levels. i have all these things i want to do, like study abroad and get involved in research labs, but i feel like i really don't have time to when i have to focus so much on school. hopefully i'll finish this week somewhat successfully and maybe then i won't feel so helpless.